Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I wished you were here like how you always used to be. J : I wished you were here right now. You were/are th closest to me among all four. I wish you were here right now and comfort me. I wished you were here right now. Just here right now. Everytime someone signs in my head snaps back from th TV to th screen but a feeling of disappointment flows over me when it isnt you. I wished I had picked up those calls because I wanna hear your voice again. The feeling of losing you is painful to bear. I dont know how to say how I feel now but what I do I am really sorry please dont blame me. All I want is for this nightmare to just stop and things back to normal. You have no idea how much I miss you, they have no idea how I am feeling now. I just feel like crawling under my covers and cry. I feel like life's really over. I've faild as everything.
I did it again today, this time round I pressed deeper. I did it again today, this time round hoping that I'll just die of bleeding. |