Charmaine's, 240695
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
ITS BAKWARRRR TIME! :D  So pissed, so sad, so irritated, so upside downI feel like I no longer have anymore control over myself&my feelings, I feel like Im not me anymore, I feel like my whole world is tumbling down again. Then it builds itself up aft so much hardwork then it tumbles down again. Its very painful to see something you are hanging on to to just snap and break and send you tumbling down. What hurts th most is not th fall, but its to see everything you have left tumble down on you. Meet up with Charmaine.P&Dyan today at Mac for breakfast. Paisehed myself la! D: I didnt know its Charmaine.P, thought someone call me ;x Ated AppleDippers&Coke, not enough, awhile later i damn hungry ;x. Bought my PieKia then bused to sch, SUEYSUEY FIRST THING IN TH MORNING HAVE TO TAKE SAME BUS AS HER ! >: Assembled, Physics was pissing as usual. I want to learn, you treat me as invisible most of th time. Classmates like me, want to study, but then idk i cant remember why, you just suddenly got so pissed again abt our uniform and kept scolding us, so in th end from got time till no more time. Its not fair. I overthere clench my fists and gritt my teeth and tell myself to ren, even daddy had to calm me down. but then you just had to keep going on. Its unfair to you that 06girls are like that, its unfair to me too. Im trying but you just had to get so upset over th minority. Why cant you just concentrate on th majority instead? Maths had graphing calculator, funnyfunny! Recess ate at study area, Charmaine.P made me so paiseh la! Make me scream then just nice Darren.Chua&Nicholas opposite then turn around >: Grrrrrr. Ated my PieKia, not hot liao uh ): Then had MT.read next, almost fell asleep ;x MT was boring.. Teacher very, argh!! Aft sch pangsehd Keely&HuiShan&friends, supposed to go Lot1 with them get Keely's McDavid guard, then in th end cos she help me find Jean, then I was on groundfloor, lazy climb up, then summore we were leaving liao, so didnt go find them. SORRY! Walked to Lot1 with Dyan,Wynn,Charmaine.P,JunDa. Laugh alot because of what we saw and what JunDa said which really came true! PS, i saw that guy again like, when i was at CCK station! ROFLOL! Went to Zinc shop with ErZi to help him look for his bag, th rest went to eat. Not hungry cos super bloated from Coke and chips. We spent 15mins there, finally decided on a dickies for him, then went down le, forgot to ask how much. ;x So went back up again right aft we got off th escalator -.- Aftwards trained back with JiaHui. Got home, had a long fight with my mum. I know it was my fault but I was really pissed off. Monday's th big day - Zonals. First game with NanHua We meet again girls. Pressure coming le. As th days go by more and more pressure are stacking up on me. Maybe if we're lucky we get to cut classes :} Cos game starts at 3pm, have to go down to RV summore. And then sch ends at like, 2+ pm. YAYNESS! Volleyball cutting le. Netball ley ? ;p TEAM BPGHS!   Lets jiayoujiayou tgt and get into Top4! JIAYOUS TO BASKETBALLERS TOMORROW!  See, veh cute right? I draw one :D Its most probably gonna appear on our class tee xDDDDD Heehee :D TagsReplies: REGENA; BOOBOOHI! :D JEAN; No uh, I never buy, im still mad at you for having a netburner! D: MAINE; HELLO! REGENA; FLY BACK! ZHENGHUI; OMG, i kenna spammed x.x CLAIRE; HI GIRL! JIAYOU ON MONDAY! YINGXIANG; BAKWAR! :D MINDY; ROFLOL! i trying luh D: DEBBIE; Hahas, ok. ROFLOL! WYNN; LOL!, they { 77th street } go tell me its street dickies ;x REGENA; YEAAAAAAAAAA~ The sun sets and it rises again and its a brand new day. Everyday night I look at my clock and watch th minutes and seconds go by till 12am. With every brand new day draws a new layer of dread in me. Not because I dont wanna start a new day, but because I dont know where am I gonna get th new strength to move on and live through th day. Everyday I drag myself out of my bed trying to find strength to get up and pull myself together. Every step I take is like walking on broken glass. I feel myself distancing away from another one else. We dont really talk or have much fun together like how we did in th past, its like that person if trying to avoid me. Am I really gonna lose them all? Yesterday I had to write a personal recount : I wish I could forget.. I wrote about us, how it all ended, how I felt, everything, from how I lived by to how I tried to stop hurting. My mummy says that my compos are nice, but she doesnt know that th first one is a personal recount. How am I gonna live by, how am I gonna pull myself together and climb up again. But I swear I will live through Zonals, I will live to see C'div get into Top4 and make th school change their thinkings towards Netball
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