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Thursday, January 22, 2009
Thinking back,心里却是充满了伤心和痛苦. I think back on th Sec1 times that we used to spend tgt. We used to be close, but then now things have to turn out this way. Cold, strangers, ameteurs, nothing more. I cant stand this world anymore. You claim to be my friends, but your ordering me to do what you want me to do. You claim to be my friends, but your attituding me. You did so last time, I tried to change you too. Now Im th one doing it, why must you be like that? You claim to know how I feel, and what drove me to depression and suicidal thoughts. But you dont know anything at all. You claim that you've been through it before, but why cant you understand that th reason for what Im doing now, th bottom line is th same as yours lastlast yr ? They only know how to claim and claim and claim they know Everything, but in th first place, they dont know anything. They only know how to shoot open their mouths and say whatever they like without thinking about how I feel. They only know how to think about themselves and not care about other people's thinking and force them to agree with them, and if they dont they pekchek those people. They only know how to think in a sense that, they are th only ones in this world. Its not fair. I've had enough. They are not th queens of this earth. I dont want this. Why do things have to change and change? Why cant things just change back 360degrees? Why cant things just remain th same? If its me that's th trouble, I dont mind leaving, afterall, life's nothing but a heap of rubbish now. Im sorry to some lovelies EG. Yanfang,Izyan, for being so cold towards you recently. It aint on purpose. What can I do, what can I say now, I can only just try and pretend and lie that Im okhay, and hide them, and hope for Wednesday to come quick so I can get my tissues. 爱什么时候才会有希望？ |