Charmaine's, 240695
Little Bunny, hophophop. |
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Thursday, March 5, 2009
I hate this.Life fucks big time, just end it. What's th point of carrying on with life when th things you do , no one seems to notice it, but they only want to notice your failures? I have really tried very hard in my CT. Cant you see my improvement in my results? My Physics used to be at boderline, this time round, I've studied hard. Althought its a simple test, but then still, if I didnt studied, I wouldnt have gotten a 16/20 right? My Geog, I memorised like fuck, and in th end, i got a 29/30. My English. I got second / third highest. My Chem, I got 19.5 / 30 , my first try att that subj, at least I studied hard into late nights , on MRT, at Mac, at least I didnt do that bad. Why arent you happy with these? Why do you only want to focus on my D&T and Maths and HMT which I failed/at boderline? I really DID study my hardest, put in so much effort. You saw it, Im sure. Dont deny. But you just refuse it and shrug it off. Why cant you just recognise th efforts I put in for once, and stop guailan me say why cant I put in th same effort as i put in for my netball for my studies? I am starting to do it now, but you just simply refuse to acknowledge it. You just want to throw me down and kick me around, You just want to take away everything of me. First you took away my happiness being a Main7, now Im pushed down to Main12. Now you want me OUT of Main12. All my efforts , all my heardworks. All gone down th mother fucking drain. Is this really what you want? To destroy me and leave me here in broken little pieces and then come back to me with crocodile tears in your eyes and asking me with fake sympathy dripping , whether am I ok? Is this really what you want? I tried my best for HMT alrdy, but how am I supposed to grasp everything in such a short notice when out of th 3 tested lessons, th teacher only taught 1 ?! You expect more of me, but you never give me time to try, to learn, to change. In fact, you never gave me th chance to. Right now, Im finally clear, your th reason I wanna end my whole life. Life sucks, its a bitch, There's no point in continuing life when all it gives you is failure after failure, and it never allows you to climb up after you fall. |