Charmaine realises that maybe its just another lie.
Im so tired of deceiving myself.
Everytime I feel something I know that its not real.
Im just telling myself stupidly that you do.

Anyway, changed th picture on top alrdy.
Before that my picture got prob, I think cos when I editing my blog then accidentally delete something. Then later cannot find th pic alrdy, also not in my Photobucket. Then in th end cos around 2am + very sleepy so decided t just dump a random picture there, nxt day realise that my MP4 got th picture, so changed back. YEAAAAAAA :D

Sch tday, met Dyan only, cause Charmaine.P sick ): And YaMei cabbing t school cos she missed her bus O_O Passed Darren.NOOBIE knee guard, hope he takes care. Hear him say about his knee I scare liaoa D: Bought sweets&coke, then bused t school.
Lessons were okhay, HMT laugh alot. Geog had stupid quiz. Wanted t sleep but .. Recess stayed in class t talk + crap. YMP was boring. Heart feeling damn sweet la ! :D English was Vocab, super boring ;O Maths listening ;} I understand what teacher talking ley! Super chim la :D
Aft sch went t lunch with Shafa, Kim, Marianna and Jean. They make me paiseh again ): Then they shout across th canteen t Regena.MAMA and then she also make me paiseh -.-
Today not my day, dropped yoghurt on my skirt! ): ROAR!
Then went t SportsHall, wanted t sleep for awhile, but couldnt and ended up feeling sad ):
Then played Monkey with some teammates, then trg started. Ran usual round, very hard + scary cos volleyballers all playing at th place that we are supposed t run, which is outside th court, then bopian have t run inside th court sometimes, then later got senior say us, tell us : Aye run outside court ley!
WAPIANG EH KNN LA . Very dua issit? You try run la ! We so nice run outside court, then got people there spikespikespike ball, want t hit us, we stupidly run there uh? Want us run outside court, still dont give us space t run, you think we want t run inside court also issit? !"£$%^&^%$£"£$%^&&^%$£"!£$%^&*&^%$£"£$%^
Heh, relax lerh ;}
Anyway, finish run lerh, leg cramp like , O_O . Then not so bad yet, did passes with Regena.MAMA, did shutter, forgot about cramp until , idk when O_O At times got so bad until needed Keely/Kim/Jean t help me D:
Still didnt do anything about it. Must chiong for trg!
Did half court, played Attacks&Defence ( DONT LAUGH LADEY! REGENA ALSO PLAY OKHAY! ) Not really happy with performance, only managed t intercept 2 or 3 balls, run wrong place twice, applied pressure only 2 or 3 times, CRAP. Cant even catch seniors' chest pass when running -.- Hard D: My fault.
Then did some random stuffs for PT :D Sprinting, footworks stuffs, jumping ( :D ) timing stuffs, MsGermaine say my timing not really good yet cos I like t chiong for somethings ^^ Haha, must work on that lerh, she say B'div is not th same as C'div, meaning that I can make mistakes when in C'div , but once in B'div its another level, make one mistake and your letting th whole team down.
Then had t do 50 pushups D: Could only tahan till 40+ then at 40+ MsGermaine ask us stop ^^
Sien, actually owe her 115 de yahnoe! But then she da ren you da liang <3333333 Hahaha, LOL.
Then she told us t go out t do PT -.- 3 SETS OF 9 EXCUSE ME! Stairs summore. Did th last stair PT until super tired D: Heng dunnid t do pushups and stuffs like that. HENG even more when MsGermaine came out and say we can stop ;D Cos she going off lerh D:
Aft trg then realise how PAINFUL my cramp was, which was still going on, so nicenice senior Sharleen helped me ^^ She help me stretch, was trying not t shout cause I was sitting at th middle of th SportsHall, so paiseh if shout, everyone will stare at me D;
7-11 next, buy Marshpotato and coke, then walked t Lot1, talked t Shafa about SOMETHINGS, feel like burden off heart.
Just take one step at a time, Thanks Shafa!
Trained home, leg muscle pain cause of cramp ):
And say Hi t my new best friend, his name is call SALOMPAS PATCH! LOLOLOLOL.
I've created a Private Blog, only Brother has access t it besides me. I guess I'll try t keep all my sad thoughts there, cause I dont really wanna let many people know.

TagsReplies:
Regena; You too ;D
Claire; HIIIIIIIII
Bernice; Hi Bernice!
Regena; LMAO yea outing la ! >: And lamelame, make me go wtf my mummie ?! LMAOS -.-
Eugene&...; Lol, explaination at th top ^^ Sorry bout it ;D
Bernice; HELLO!
Regena; MARMIE! kkkk ;} I try.
Wynn; Yea lor, T.T right.