Charmaine's, 240695
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Saturday, April 18, 2009
EDITED.Must focus on th postive side, not negative side. NEW GAN: YiHan SMILEY! :D She said: Cry must cry tgt, smile must smile tgt. :D Its very comforting t think of how I met her. I was kind of sadsad on Plurk, and then she was th one who cheered me up alot! ^^ She's so nice, and at that time I didnt even know her! :D Anyway, yesterday's trg was okhayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, in fact its fun luh! MsGermaine never come (TouXiao xD) Nah laaaaa, she never come also no good ): Ran first time th 10 rounds, veh mafan cause sometimes got people obstruct! Wanted t give up at th 7th round, cause its really alot! Its like, running 1round = running 2 rounds around netball court / two blocks including th walkway along thumbprint system there, if you get what I mean. ! But, Mummy my tuidongli. She running in th front with Keely. HOHO! Then did PT, 3sets of circuit, but heng there's no sprinting so it was okie, MUMMY MY TUIDONGLI AGAIN! Okay la, actually dunnid cause wasnt veh tired :P HAHA KK DONT PIAK ME. Then played game with juniors&seniors, WD,WD,GK,GA&C! HOHOHO. Ok la, th GA&C is we play rojak with senior then I can play those position okie! If not I tell MsGrace I want play GA she dont even want look at me ! T.T First quater, didnt have feel, lost all my pasion. Second quater, decided t just play, abit bochap but surprisingly can intercept. ( later Jean come tell me I her idol O_O Ask me teach her how t intercept so teach her ^^ YAY JEAN MEIMEI JIAYOU! ) Third quater took a break, last quater played GK, lost all my touch for GK alrdy! T.T Always too slow, guess Im better in WD bah, but they are all th same what ! Played Rojak with seniors later, didnt get t shoot! Either Jean shoot, or ball always get intercepted -.- Once I shoot, but out -.- RARRRRRRRRRRH! ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYY, aft trg didnt go maggimee, instead went t get BBT alone cos other teammates wanted t go Lot1 get food+BBT, but I veh tired, Today went HPB get my review done, had t do stupid X-ray, then trained down t Lot1 t eat at Je-something-something Pepper Express ^^ Wanted t eat at IMM but SHE didnt want t walk under sun, typical HER. Lunch was nice, Breaded Chicken Spaghetti with rich Mushroom soup ended with Italian Chocolate cake and icecream, so nice and sweet I felt like sugar rush O_O Im still doing my work now at 12am, all thanks t HER who talk t me so LONG and so SLOW. I had t pangseh many convo boxes for at least 1hr -.- Anyway, Tags Reply! Jocelyn; ^^ Cheryl; YEAAAAAAAA! SO COOL RIGHT! :D SURE YOUR HOUSE LAAAA :D Lareyna; Hehe, that one not my one la, my one accompany me all th way home :D WeiLi; O_O YA! If in real life you saw even funnier :D Regena; Eh, you not there be my tuidongli mah D: WeeNee,ShiMin,Chaohong; HELLO LOVES! Sheryln; Heh, done, sorry i veh lag in linking D: Regena; WEHHHHH, i not that bad okieeeee, just got room for improvement :D JiaWen; Hey pretty! Thanks :} I feel like Im losing that strong passion for Netball alrdy. During th first quater of Friday's game, I didnt feel like sprinting anymore. I didnt feel like going all th way anymore. I didnt feel like playing with that gutso and gest anymore. I just didnt feel like playing it with that kind of love for it anymore. During th zonals and last year, every single intercept I make is a sense of achievement t me, I feel th honour, I feel th pride of myself t make that single intercept, but now, every intercept I make is just a relief t me, telling myself that I've done my part. The end. It just no longer feels th same anymore. Is this what its supposed t be? Where is th passion I had last year? Where is th sense of achievement I had last year? Where is th pride I had last year? I dont know why, I just dont feel anything for Netball anymore. I keep asking myself, why am I pushing myself so hard for it? What am I trying t overcome, myself? What am I using it t cover up ? What am I using it t escape from? I keep asking myself but I keep dont get th answers. I tried asking others but they cant give me an answer, th answer comes from me alone. But right now I am so confused, I dont know why, why is th passion for netball just gone so fast. For th past 1year, I have been so into th sport, I gave my all, my tears, my pain, my studies, my time, my heart, my soul, I sacrifised so much, am I really going t let it all go once and for all? I told myself maybe I will come back stronger and better when Im sec3 after th zonals, but will I be as good as before? I feel just like Cheryl now, part of me like her wants t find back th passion and love for th game, but th other part of me is just shedding tears and letting it all go. Th team is what I cant bear th most, place where just like her, I can find my true friends and confidants. But what's th point, when everyone , esp you is changing? what if one day everyone just leaves? What am I going t do? I felt myself on court, just like what I told MrsNeo. Th court is just like my home, where I once felt th love and passion, and most importantly, friendship. This love, is th love that I can never get from home. But right now, I feel like Im straying away, everyone is breaking apart, th once was cgirls is straying away, Sam&ShiMin&Charmaine are gone, we seniors stepping up. People breaking into their own lil groups, everyone seperated into groups for drills, even th little time we get t spend tgt during trg is not even enough t satisfy a lil chat burning deep within me that I wanna start with my teammates. Im losing th passion for netball, but Im shedding tears, finding it hard t let go of th sport. I really dont know what t do. |