"Quit school then!", i told my mum.
Deep inside me you dont know how hurt I was, how much I wanted t give up everything.

James,Brother.:
I know its me your refering t in your blog.
I had said, NO, and till now I still mean it.
Maybe you read it in another way, IDK.
Stop overstressing yourself and making me worry for you k, Brother.
So many things I wish t tell you,
But I want t tell you that thou its th sun that will rise and set w you,
it will always be Charmaine who will be by your side w you.

Regena,Mama:
I know you have been telling me manymanymany times t stay strong, dont give up.
But this time I feel myself slipping and fading away.
Im sorry for letting you down, sorry for not being a goodgood daughter where you can do (Y) - this.
Mama, I want t tell you t be strong too,
there will be many obstacles ahead of you,
who knows come Bdiv'11 you will be captain again :}
Stay strong kk, dont give up.
Th team's depending on you.
TDL ! Love you till no more air.

Darren,Noobie:
Noobie, study hard, kk.
Thankyou for all those lengthy messages you once sent me t cheer me up.
Remember what I told you, kk.
Love also love happily.
Turn that smiling mask on your face into one that is real.
Dont make me worry about you when I read your emo posts, ok ?
Hold on t th things that make you smile, let go of those that makes you tear.
That is what you told me, and since then it was th motto of my life.
Now I hope that will be th same t you too, 找到幸福了 就要开心。
如果你认定她就是你的幸福 坚强一点 勇敢去追求.
There are many obstacles, but those are only part and parcel of your life.
Jiayou, I know you can do it.

Linqi,Sister:
Sister, I know there are times when your sad, but you dont sad for us t see,
Im sorry for th times when I wasnt by your side when you were sad,
and probably in th near time I wouldnt be able t be by your side anymore.
But promise me you will be brave ok?
Promise me you will hang on, dont quit schooling too, ok?
Sister thankyou for all those talks you had with me, thankyou for what you have said to me.
Sister, you will never know how much those meant t me.
Live life strongly and happily, there's still alot of good things waiting for you.
Im sure you can move on, Im sure you will.

C'div '09:
You are were where I found my happiness, you are were where I found my life and my passion.
Netball, a sport for only 7, but a sport that revolves around 16.
You girls never fail t make me laugh,
Im going t miss you girls th most, Marianna's antics, Shafa's 'wooooo' *raise eyebrows, Regena's retarded actions and her TDL, Shimin, Sam, Char's cutecute behavior, Kimbly's shrilling screams when we try t poke her, Keely's conservative acts, Jean's 'obsession' about weight, Claire's cuteness, Bernice's shyness, Mabel,YanChing,XinHui,JiaXuan's supportive words, Joice's cold jokes where no one laughs at (-.- Laughs!).
On th whole, you guys made me whole.
Im sorry when I said I have lost passion for th sport.
I hope you girls will do way better without me,
continue t strive, and get that Top4 we had dreamed so much about, and almost got it, if it wasnt for me.

Jocelyn,Honeystar:
Honeystar!
Found your Prince Charming, dont sad alrdy kkkk :(
Love is about being happy, dont worry about many other things alrdy kkk !
No matter where I am I will always remember you.
Stay strong, stay happy.
Honeymoon love Honeystar .

ChaoHong&Jaspreet:
So far, besides Shimin,Sam and Char, you are th next two juniors that Im more familiar to.
I thank God for putting you two into Netball,
Im sure ChaoHong will be a good WD, and Jaspreet a good GD.
Remember, fast runs and reactions , run all th way for th ball while defending kk?
Hope t see you two playing during th Zonals :}

Charmaine,Dyan:
Thank you for th first two happy months you gave me,
Thank you for your sudden leave without telling me why,
Thank you for letting me know that "Friends forever" is nothing but all a lie.

Leonard,JunDa,Cheryl,NehnehPok,ShiHui,YaMei,TeckJin,
YingXiang,WeiLi,KengNing,Francisca:
You guys have been great friends, although some Im not really close to,
But I really enjoyed my times w you.
Cheryl&JunDa last long, I know you will.
Leonard be happy and stop slitting w your finger nails kk.
ShiHui my mu lao hu! I will miss crapping w you.
Quack My duck, i will miss asking you t shut your quackings.
Lastly, I want sushi again !

Lastly, You:
Stay happy, 勇敢去面对
爱是残忍的 坚强一点 我永远在你背后
还是爱着你.

What hurts th most, is being so close, and having so much t say, then watching you walk away.