Charmaine's, 240695
Little Bunny, hophophop. |
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Sunday, May 17, 2009
Lord, hear my cries! Right now I just feel like smoking&drinking all I can @ 4am.It was never like this in th past at all. But right now all my biggest fears and your predictions are all coming true. When I was down you pick me up, When I was sick you lifted my spirits and make me feel better. When I turned you down it felt like I was going t turn you down forever. When it rained you let me run t you for protection, When I was mad you lent a listening year. I know things dont last forever, but why cant this last even longer though not forever? Damaged things can never be perfect again, oh how true is it. They say something that lasts for long can withstand all sorts of difficulties. But ours broke down, crumbled and shattered, all in my hands. I tried not t think back on th past, I deleted away my 'Past' column t stop myself from reading . I restricted myself from clicking on January 2008 of your Pasts. I just dont want t relive those memories again, I dont want t . Reliving them is like being cut open again, horribly strickened w nostalgia, sadness and guilt. Feels like Im swimming in an ocean of emotions. Thou your presence is w me, my presence is w you, I know, and you know, that things are no longer gonna be th same again. Damaged things no longer are perfect, no matter how hard you try, there's just always that haunting scar. Anyone? Let me kup ! It was never like this in th past, never. Oh Lord give me strength when Im weak, hold me in your arms and dont let me fall again. Im just too tired and weak t pick up my broken pieces alone again. It was my fault. Even if th world is t crumble down on you, and you feel voided of everything,I had chosen t let go of this relationship. I had chosen t spoil this friendship. I had chosen t destroy all these. If I were t say sorry now, brother, will you forgive me? my ocean of love will always be there for you. |