Charmaine's, 240695
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
Life is like clay.
Today I fell twice, fell down hard. But strong hands of goodfs lifted me up, someone pulled me up and told me that I cant change for someone, but that someone broke me down again. I cant believe I was just so so so stupid.If sorrys could heal everything, then t hell with th politics and laws. Losing a friend was never easy. But losing a good friend is never something I wanted. I tried and tried, but you kept pushing me down, making me feel inferior, making me feel fucking small infront of Ms Ow and th class. Yea, Im a useless rep who makes her assistant do every single thing. But before you open your mouth there are people who can justify that th work they hand in t you is refused and pushed t me. Yes I admit, people do make mistakes. But they(stupid people) will never know unless they are told. But you didnt tell me, how am I supp t know? Many live their days in and out, how would they know where they've gone wrong? B, I dont hate you. I just (idk what word t use here) for all that you've done. I'll just wish I never have t see you. You were right. October 2008 should have never occurred at all, and I shouldnt have ever called you on that very day. -- For a moment I sat there stunned, my mind unable t process what you have writtened. I tried t wake up, but no it wasnt a dream. I was stupid. Stupid enough t have put th blame on me. And now you came t tell me th truth. How do you expect me t react? Normal? Aft th misery and th deepest and darkest depth I had sunk into, I am told that it wasnt my fault, th truth surfaced. What's th meaning of this? Aft th breakup I tried convincing myself that you were still a good guy, it was all my fault. I kept reapproaching myself, but it turned out t all be a lie. Whywhywhywhywhy. Now I have no idea how am I ever gonna face you, talk t you, or worse, even see your friggin' face. Thanks alot, that's all I can say. |