Char's

RELINKKKKKKKKKK.

2009-12-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

I've moved alrdy lahhhh. (:
Relink me people @ HERE

you'll be in my heart.

2009-12-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

"Oh believe me, you'll be in my heart. " - You'll be in my heart, Phil Collins.

Im finally back, just t update, otherwise I've lost all my blogging vibes. Plus recently Idk why some stuffs are raked up again, feeling all miserable, sad and blahblahblah again. Damn.

Class chalet
Lets see, met classmates at Admiralty station at 1230, SUPPOSEDLY. In th end most of them came at around 1plus. Bused down t Coasta Sands, blahblah. Skipskip.

Settled down and went down t Pasir Ris Park t play. Water super dirty I tell you, I was sinking into th wet sand, and I was screaming like some idiot when I pulled my legs out and found out that they were grey thanks t th dirty sand + water. Dont know hor, which idiot go hit th volleyball, so zunzun drop into th sea -o-

Went rollarblading w Francisca and Junda while th rest either biked or played volleyball. Son was so nice t hold my wrist and pull me along so I dont fall :D Francisca held mine too, cause she was scared t fall (?) but in th end she still did when Son went too fast, and she panicked (while I was enjoying myself xD ) and fell, and then I fell after I claimed I was steady enough for Son t let go of me. IDK why I fell manzxc, so embarassing, fell infront of WeiCheng and Leonard -o- Ahh, Cheng still say I fall until super unglam -o-

Skipskip.

Went back chalet t slack, play Uno, had alot of scandalous peektures taken ): when we fought for th pillows and tickled each other nuts. Blahblah, then started th BBQ, took super long, thanks t MingEe and Daniel who came over t help us. Then Shihui and Cheryl came. Yay.

Skipskip.

Ate quite little I think. HAHA. Played abit, slacked abit, overall I couldnt stay still. Had alot of unglams taken while playing ChubbyBunny >.< Went t pick TJ up and grab drinks at Cheers at Downtown. Try Cream Soda manzxc, its super nice :D

Stayed at th Chalet till around 10+, then Francisca, WeiCheng and TJ sent me and ShiHui t th bus stop, and trained back w her :)

Overnight at Aunt's house
Went down t Takashimaya t find my Aunt, saw Hi-5 there -o- Its not even th original de lor, sigh ):
Grabbed a bite and trained down t TanaMerah ( :O ) and went down t her house. Helped her w her Christmas tree, watched Tarzan because of my baby cousin, and then dinner! :D Ikea's beef meat balls and french fries <3 Ahhh, haven.

Next day, woke up around, 9+? Thanks t sister again :( Changed and everything, watched abit of Seseme Street w cutecute Elisa ( in above peek ) and sissy, then headed t Bedok's Shenshiong t grab some stuffs needed for BBQ and Chocolate Fondue. Cabbed back t Aunt's condo, hengheng uh, was raining like no tomorrow. LOL.

Skipskip.

Made sushi, watched Twilight and stuffed ourselves w sushi, full ~ Watched Tarzan again cause little Elody loved it.

Skipskip.

BBQ time, spent a long time starting fire cause charcoal got problem. Started eating only around 9+, hungry ghosts. Didnt eat much thou, cause I was so bloated from wine. Was a lil drunk, drowned dk how many cups. Diedie had t sober up, because was supposed t teach Elisa how t skate. Had alot of fun w her, love her so so much la :)

Went t bathe, then played Wii w cousins while eating Chocolate Fondue till 2+am. Ahh ~ Pulled my bicep muscles while playing Wii boxing :( Laugh lorrrrr ~

Left next day :D

Ok Im done. Peektures will be up in Facebook, go check them out :D

its always just a matter of time.

2009-12-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

To the world you may not be the most perfect person in the world, but to someone, you are already good enough to fit into his/her 'perfect' catagory. Its always those little imperfections that make love perfect.

Busy, tired. Will post another time.
In th mean time, here's something for you t laugh at :
Charmaine Teh pulled a bicep muscle while playing Wii Boxing.
Cool anot ?! :b

P/S: Facebook got alot of my unglams in Classmates' Class Chalet photo albums :C
P/S/S: Shall upload and post about Class Chalet and overnight at Aunt's house soonsoon.
P/S/S: Caught A Christmas Carol and 2012 recently. Coolio :D
P/S/S/S: I luvvvvv Christmas Carolling thou we're only having practise now :)

P/S/S/S/S: WEATHER HOT AND COLD UH, CANNOT TAHAN.
P/S/S/S/S/S: k bai. LOL. Miss me.

Trying to forget someone, is like trying to remember someone whom you have never met.

2009-12-02T18:44:00.002+08:00

I swear I feel like poo now.
Tell me, why th fuck am I still thinking of you.

2009-11-29T10:54:00.001+08:00

夜深人静时, 心只想着一个人.

books, shopping, training, food binging.

2009-11-28T13:24:00.001+08:00

Been busy lately people. Well, kinda.

Hadnt been touching th computer for days, dk why I dont even feel like switching it on, maybe because Im hooked onto my phone? Or maybe ..

Yea I've been studying, I want t do well in Sec3 what. Just that Im not working hard enough now. Shall buck up. Wheets.

Been eating alot of food just because I feel like, ohman, -'- Shall stop. Its scary, very 1hour - 2hours of studying I'll get up and search for food O_O Holy shit. Shall hiong more in PT t burn off th fats, its disgusting for someone playing in sports t be full of fats yanoe -o-

Anw, went down t Town yesterday with Mom and Sissy. Spent quite a bomb, Momsie didnt even know what she spent 13$ + on manzxc -o- Bought a Perlini wallet, Mascara (:O), earrings (:OOO) and a SpongeBob Tee, featuring him with split pants :D So happy. Been getting quite a number of Tees recently, tempted t get more. Plus its like, 8$ for one, 15$ for two :D And they are seriously nice la, every week got different design I think.

And lastly, Class Chalet on Tuesday, not staying overnight. Going t overnight at Aunt's condo from Thursday t Saturday, so I think I will be skipping 2trainings ? :X Shush, our secret k :B So looking forward t it manzxc, can go swimming anytime I want cos my aunt's house is right beside th swimming pool, can do baking and cooking French stuffs w her cos she's half French half Vietnamese :D Happy, but I think I will be abit like, stepping on glass cos both my cousins are small kids ( Have I told you how scared I am of kids. ). So, dont expect a post from me anytime soon? Haha, shall be abit busy, but shall be back with peektures :D

Shopping, shopping, shoppingggggggggggggggg !

2009-11-23T11:35:00.001+08:00

Yay, yesterday was great :b
Met that silly girl at her house.
Had t trouble Rabbit t bring me, in th end ley, she was waiting for me there -o-

Blahblah, bused t Far East, saw a noob there, aiyoh, vehli luan la want t meet him that time -o-.

Bought shoes, shirts and a watch :b happyhappyhappy.

Dinner at the Chicken Rice stall again, shall be back this Friday t get my pants and Neon print blouse.

Back home and was locked outside because no one's home and I didnt have my keys :C

So went down t find laoba and blahblahblahblah.

Overall, Imma happy girl yesterday :b

Anw, super overdued BPL photos :)

We like t play w our icecream!

Still cant bear t eat it yet.

Couldnt really tahan alrdy, my icecream was melting i think :C

Maria's face :b

I knew it. Mrs Neo is capable of candiding also.

Sharleeeeeeen, betcha on th verge of shouting/announcing something.

Lastly, love you girls so much (:

Eek, my Bannana fren is gna shave off his head :O

Ohmygawwwwwwwwwwwwwwsh. Cant wait t see and play w his short mao. LOL.

Ohno, 26more minutes before I fly off for trg.

~~Wonder if training will be cancelled as~~ it looks like its gna rain ley.

I want my PrawnHead at trg. I want my Meimei also :C

Flyyyyyy ~

Carrot cake, milk, and more carrot cake!

2009-11-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

" I know this world is so cold and deceiving,

But I keep my head up like my nose is bleeding. "

- Lil' Wayne

I swear Im getting a new blogskin. I think, maybe thinking of shifting t wordpress/tumblr ?

Kinda bored of blogger.

All these will happen, they definitely will, when I finally set myself down and get my ass on these.

~~Which is kinda impossible~~ Aw man.

Im gonna be happy today, because Im going shopping w Jean and Shafa.

think twice before you bark. if not, dont even open up your mouth pathetic people.

2009-11-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

Favourite quote :) Sometimes I just feel that Teammates&Shihui are like, simply th best thing in th world.
When many things are down they are always there for me.
Me and teammates go crazy together, go high together, be noisy in public, but none of us actually feels embarassed about it.
Even when Im with ShiHui and Im th only one zi-highing over there, she doesnt walk away and leave me there alone t be embarassed.
We laugh together, play together, have fun together and such, sometimes I just wish that time would just stop there.
We are loud, we are noisy, I dont really care what people think or see us, especially you.
You can bark all you want w your small little friend for all you want, but ask yourself this, if you find Netballers such bitches, why were you part of us once?

Speaking about people looking down on us because of th way we carry ourselves, Im actually really pissed at someone. I shalln't mention names, I dont want t embarass that person enough just as I have on Facebook.
You, I think its pathetic when you actually said that us netballers would DEFINITELY lose in th BPL.
Yea, whatever, you may be just kidding but I find you pathetic alrdy. How can you joke about all these things?
You think things you said out will never hurt other people's feelings, will be taken lightly and never put t heart?
Its time you grow up dude, and stop being so childish.
So you think that BPNB will actually and DEFINITELY lose th whole BPL and hang our heads in shame, which apparently seems t please your birdbrain, huh?
So let me tell you this, both th B Div and C Div have emerged CHAMPIONS in th league, in our homeground.

One day, just find your balls and watch us fight on court.
Then you will know, how important th sport is t us.
Win or lose, we fight it out.
When our juniors fought it out w TK, they never did give up.
TK is like, National champions/Top (?), and frankly, it was like fighting a losing battle right at th beginning of th game.
But they never did give up. Even thou Coach seemed like she gave up by half time, our juniors never did.
Instead they fought on, and th score chased up, but they still lost by 1 point.
If they never ever wanted t try or give it their all, they would never have played so well, neither would they win th support from so many other schools and coaches.

Some people look down on Netball because they find Netball such a simple game.
Yes, throw ball from one court t another, and then shoot.
But have you ever tried throwing from one third t another, or put that shot in (even without pressure) ?
Most of th people who have boasted t me, found that they literally FAILED when I challenged them to.
And I laughed in their face, mocking their innocence, and pathetic-ness.
Why dont YOU try then?

So what if Netballers aint like Volleyballers, always having achievements in West Zone competitions and bring glory t th school?
Yes, its glorious, and I do admit, Im jealous at times.
But there's something in Volleyballers that we have too, is that we never give up, we persevere t th end.
Right t th end, whether we're playing a losing/winning match.
A trophy can be bought w money and carved on with even more money, but do you think that perseverance, teamwork and team spirit can be bought w money?
Its really time Netball is appreciated, just because some CCAs have many achievements means that priority goes t them.
Yes , maybe certain favortism can never be avoided, but stop snatching our courts and rights away like we're nothing.
Get this straight, we are playing for you, th school. Stop treating us like dung.
And dont bullshit in our face that th court is wholey for us, and th next day Volleyball court lines are drawn up.
Its alrdy down t th last straw.
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Kk, Im done w my rantings.
Its infuriating manzxc, that person seriously has no balls.
Even Ms Lee seemed quite pissed at him when Regena told th whole team what he said, I could see, even though she was her usual cheery self.
Anyway, that aside, I would like t say, CONGRATULATIONS BPNB FOR OCCUPYING TH CHAMPION SPACE FOR BOTH C DIV AND B DIV with your big asses of course :b
HAHA, knowing that you girls fought all th way t th end is really comforting, since I couldnt play because of that stupid HMT retest. :)
Lets continue t strive on and do our best ok! :)

happy bunny.

2009-11-16T16:22:00.001+08:00

Its only 3.48pm, and Im hungry :C
I drowned down a coke, and realise that it only made my hunger worse.
So lesson learnt : Never drink coke with an empty stomach.
Oh yes, did I mention that it coke rubs against your stomach ? Kinda bad for your stomach, that's what I heard.
That's th result of a whole morning spent clearing my cupboard, drawer and wardrobe. *Phew.
Its bloody tiring.
And oh did I mention I got my Nokia E71alrdy? :b

Its black :b Not as nice as th grey one, but hey, who cares when you get newer software? Anw, black not so bad la :b

Whee :B

Anw, Peacock is such a idiot la. Say what 12am on 16Nov results come out, in th end is today 12am them come out. WTF? Im super confuse please.
And Im really confident t get Life Science class. Ohmy, you better give me that !

Friendly match tmr :C And BANNANA IS SO IRRITATING :(

Nothing really fades. They say time does heal, but they never mentioned that time never removes scars of th past.

2009-11-13T17:21:00.004+08:00

Once a team, always a team. Recently so many people's leaving Netball.

The number of Sec2s are dwindling, seriously.

From 15 to 8, all just in one year.

Deppressing

Hi people, yesterday was Big Bird YanLin's birthday :b , so we sang her a birthday song after training today :b.

Went t CCK at 8am for breakfast today :O Tired until no appetite :x

Training was totally friendly matches with Sec4 seniors.
Played GK all th way, except for one match - WD.

Played like horrid crap la please, intercept ball also tap ball away.

Dont know what's gotten into me, all I did was t taptaptap ball away.

So irritating nehzxczxczxczxc. And Boo was so nice, she was teaching me + telling me my mistakes during th game :B Hee.

Had lunch w th sec2s that came today + Carlie.

Hungry + tired = Noisy people :b

You aint affecting me anymore, no more :)

I feel like relinking manzxc, l-ovebitee sounds so childish -o-.

*Charmaine, glad you realised.

:b , Im talking t myself.

Anw, friendlies at SCGS on Tuesday D: ~~Dont feel like going :o~~

So tired, planning t stay up t watch th oldold time gambling show : Shuang Tian Zhi Zun that features ZoeyTay + Li Nan Xing. Awwwwwwww~

Strangers t friends, friends t lovers, lovers t friends, friends t strangers.

Sometimes its hard t let go, but when th time comes, you just got to let go.

When one door closes, many more will open.

Th only thing holding us back is th past, it'll be over soon my dear.

Very soon, and then it will be just back t square1.

And, ending this post with,

REGENA CHUA WHAT TH HECK YOU DO T YOUR HAND LA PLEASE TAKE CARE I LOVE CHIUUUUUUUUU~

When life gives you lemons, you squeeze them in your eyes and start running around like a total idiot. :)

2009-11-11T17:17:00.004+08:00

But then again, what if you have no reasons t smile?

Reply: You're alive, that's a reason.

Sometimes when people choose t walk out from your life,

they have a reason. Its your choice whether you want t blame them or not,

but get this clear, for everything that happens, there is a reason.

Starting t get disgusted by something.

It better stop. Fuck.

Anw, did I mention how much I love th Life Quotes from Photobucket?

Had training today, and it was a disaster.

Firstly, me and Keely started th training feeling exhausted.

Keely was troubled because she had no idea how t go back t Downtown East for her chalet, and I was dead beat because apparently I was accompanying someone on th phone until 12.02am >: )

Anyways, our knees hurt, so we jogged super duperly slow, bearing w th pain and all.

I think we ran one round less :O

And then when I so happened t check my phone, I received a message.

Not that th person pisses me off, but what THAT person wrote pisses me off.

THAT person used t take my troubles off me, but now THAT person is just simply adding on t it.

Thanks uh.

We had t do suicides, 3.2.1 within 50s.

And I failed th timing by 1 or 2 seconds ( I think ).

WTF. So th whole lot of us had t re-do another round.

Stupid, I couldnt breathe, and my legs felt like jelly.

And lastly, I twisted my ankle.

It isnt really THAT bad, probably it was twisted that easily because th previous injury hadnt healed.

I was just merely running, and it just twisted when I stopped. -o-

Lunch at Food Culture with Maria and Regena after training.

We laughed damn loudly like a bunch of lunatics.

So what, I dont really care.

I just LOVED th feeling of having th old me back again.

I felt exhilarated, and I felt light, like I could fly.

It felt good t let everything out t those two girls, and it made me realise that I've made th right choice.

Maybe t others, Im just being selfish.

But t me, it was probably th rightest choice.

I absolutely felt way happier, rather than feeling stressed and stuck in between.

I dont really want t care what you think right now.

Carry on thinking that Im alrdy so over you.

Maybe you think that Im such an easy loose bitch who has totally no feelings.

I dont want t waste my finger energy just t type out and explain everything out.

Im sure deep down you know th truth.

Yea, carry on blaming, I dont give a shit.

Whatever, its my fault anyway.

Blame me for trying t be happy, because I dont want t be pathetic and wallow in misery, when I can actually choose th choice of cheering myself up.

I've been through it, and I absolutely hate it.

Im sure you understand, afterall, you are all a year older than me.

its shut-down mode time.

2009-11-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

" Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for your future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. "

Mummy posted this up on my Facebook wall.

I guess she kinda knows what happened, even if she doesnt, I guess she knows that something's definitely up.

Am shutting off my phone today, maybe switching it on at times t check for peepol's messages.

Cooked porridge for Bra today.

There's ham, sausage, fish cake and dau gua.

Kinda a disaster, burnt th pot and porridge at th bottom of th pot.

Shit. He better finish th porridge .
There wont be anymore 'hi-im-mudafooking-screwed-up' posts.

Shall pull myself together.

Thanks Goodf, James, Rabbit, Regena, bannana, JIONGLIN!, and some others for th cheerup notes.
idk why suddenly I miss that big Punneh so much. (:
Jiayou for your O'levels okhay (:

Shall be back soon.
Currently am tired, with horrible muscle aches, probably from rollarblading. (Too tense up ya see)
Will be back, stronger and better.

" Without you, the earth won't stop spinning. But without you, my heart would stop beating. " - Brendon Chua

2009-11-09T17:19:00.004+08:00

You know why I love this peekture so much? Because it was a candid shot of me talking on th phone w you one day. It was a candid shot on th webcam that I was playing around with, and I had accidentally pressed th button. Wrecked. Broken. I made a promise that I wont cry today. I wont. And I'd make that promise tomorrow too. Because no matter what I'll pull through.

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Hi people. My mood meter has gone up, but not by alot .
Anw, went blading yesterday at East Coast Park yesterday and fell on my ass 2 times -.- It was embarassing, but I found myself laughing all th way while waiting for my dad t come and pick me up. So I made my mind up that next Sunday when I go there I shall go jogging instead. Daddy had forsaken biking because he said he wasnt really assured that I was able t blade ( Please, it had been a year since I last blade ), so he just walked along w me while I blade. C:

Had training today, did th hopping drill. IDK why, I kinda enjoyed it. Played WA ( OMG ) for awhile in th game, MsG said she wanted t try out, and I was like, ... Okhayyyyyyyyy .. And in th end I got booted out of th game and replaced by Su Li. HOHO. I was like, so kuku on court la. And not t mention that I actually ran and slipped on th ~~bloody freaking~~ court line when th whistle blew, smashing my knee on th floor and bringing Xin Ee down w me cause she tripped over me. Wow. Poor Xin Ee. Poor Charmaine.

Met Rabbit after training for lunch at Yew Tee Point. And there was something that really made me happy, for once, after what has happened.

There was this lady, unemployed, selling keychains, for 4$. I know its ridiculously expensive, and I wanted t reject her. But there was this tugging feeling in me, I knew that if I walked away I would never be able t set myself at ease. So I just forked out that 4$. To me 4$ for a keychain may just be a pinch in th skin, but t someone else it means alot.

I know some of your think Im silly la, that th lady 有手有脚 why dont want t find a job. True, but if you look at it at another perspective, isnt what she's doing - selling th keychains, a job? I mean, a job isnt defined by what you do, but by whether you're making an honest living anot. A job doesnt mean sitting in a office signing documents, or standing in th kitchen cooking food. So what if she has hands and legs, she wasnt given th opportunity t work in a kitchen/office/etc if she did try.

But anyway, bottom line is that, seeing that happy look that flashed across her face really made my day. It was th first time in days that I ever felt this way. Her attitude had thought me t be grateful for what your life gave you, because you only have one life. You dont belittle th little sum of money you have, because it may seem like peanuts and worthless t you, but you never know how much it can change a person's life. Like, say, ten cents may be little t you, but if you give it t someone who has 999,999.90$, you could make him a billionair.

You see what I mean?

Anw, was supposed t catch ' My Girlf is an Agent ' w Rabbit, but ahwells, stupid HMT retest, so headed home instead. Thanks for cheering me up today.

Happy's th word.
Thanks for th piggy :) Made my day as well.

Im th one being selfish, I chose Teammates over you. I chose t give in and want my old life back. I really dont know how t face you. That's all I can say.
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I promise, that even thou I wont smile as big as this > :D , I'll still smile as wide as this > (: .

if i could just do something right this time round, this is th right that Im doing.

2009-11-07T15:52:00.003+08:00

" And it was wonderful, it was magical. He was everything I waited for, a miracle. And if I should ever fall in love again with someone new, oh it could never be the way, no it would never be the way, I loved you. " The way I loved you - Selena Gomez

Behind every beautiful thing, there's always some kind of pain. - bob dylan

2009-11-06T10:38:00.003+08:00

Im sorry, Fahry.

You were something I've always waited for - a miracle.

Im sorry, maybe we should just start back as friends.

It feels like Im lovin' a stranger.

I love you Boyf, I really do.

All I ever wanted was for you t be happy, I dont want you t be sad because of me, or pretend that you arent because of me.

Im sorry dear, Im really sorry.

But w me, I guess things just wont work out .

I love you.

beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeejesus.

2009-11-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

Was watching 'Paranormal Activity' yesterday at 10pm+ all alone in my study room with my headphones on. Yes, All alone, headphones on. Its crazy. And its creepy. And it scared me shitless. Its th first show that scared me, Shutter/Th Ring etc etc didnt even make me cringe. But 'Paranormal Activity' did. Bannana's idea, he suddenly mentioned that he watched it w his bro at 3am, kinda reminded me that I actually wanted t catch it, so stupidly watched it alone. Thank goodness for Sponge :) Wanna try? If it scared me shitless, I dont know why it wont t you :)
Check out th trailer, but dont poo in your pants.
Note: If ya wanna watch th whole show on http://www.ovguide.com/ , I suggest you watch it with someone beside you.

Gosh, th trailer is not even scary. You should just try searching for it on Ovguide.com, th whole show itself is like, freaky. Esp at certain timings : 40mins + and 80mins +. Go check it out, you'll love it :))))

Anyway, I have a friggin' urge t post this : I love that silly boy so so much.
Oi. You better stop eating Mac hor. Fall sick I piak you okie :)
Andandand, tenth is coming eh ? Please take careeeeeee :(
AND YOU OWE ME A FREAKING PEEKTURE :P
<3

Sticking t th plan for tmr. Nothing's stopping me. >:)

Lastly, Jiayou Bannana.

Toodles, xoxo

2009-11-04T20:07:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like th Coyote, trying so hard, but always ending up flagging th white flag and holding th 'Help' sign.
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Friendlies with Broadericks today. Played GK all th way, except for th last match, played C. Killer I tell you. Put a strain on my stamina, wanted t die, but I can say, there's a huge difference in th way I played C last year in my first carnival, and today's performance. :) Met Chen Zhu Ren w Momsie aft training t talk, sotsot uh, JiongLin keep walking past uh, evesdropping right! :P Lunchie w Teammies afterwards at Food Culture, then walkwalk around w Regena + Keely + Boyf + Yaz . Well at least things started t look up thou ..

Friday will be dedicated t jogging and studying Chinese idioms. Gonna just jog, jog, jog, jog, and jog until everything just fades away.

好累，真得很累了.
I just feel like curling up in a corner of th house all alone and just bawl everything out.
Something, somewhere, went terribly wrong, and it seems like there's no turning back.
Not anymore.

your love hurts like a paper cut.

2009-11-03T18:31:00.004+08:00

It looks like truth has finally caught up w me, its inevitable, isnt it?

Mood meter: 0

Pissed, sad, disappointed, helpless, desperate, confused.

Stay strong girl, stay strong.

Sorry, fren.

It's more in your eyes how you look at me, like you no longer care for me.

Hurts, but th pain just gets worse.

Im just different, that's all.

2009-11-02T10:32:00.001+08:00

Okie people, Im back. School holidays are started, holidays are quite packed. Got trainings, HMT re-test, outings, homeworks, and carnivals. Plus, tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth tenth is cominggggggggggggggggggg. WHEEEE!

Headed down t town ( Plaza Singapura and Far East ) w LinQi. I got my hair extensions alrdy, 5 colours - 4 different shades of brown and red. WHEEEE. And I found wrist bands w 'Atheletics' and 'Soccer' on them. :D Fruitful trip, thanks for th heart-t-heart talk sister :)

Got me pretty headphones also :) Its pink cherry blossom. Although it cannot be compared t th Toxin headphones I wanted ( :O ) [ Its 50$ :( ] but still, its very chio, kk :) Bought them at Sim Lim Square, cheapcheap okhay. Bigbig pink headphones only for 12$. Wheeeee! Happy much :) Bought my dress at Bugis, th dress that Daddy owes me :D Supposed t be shopping spree, but there were just too much clothes t get, so just forget it, in case my Dad goes broke or what -.-

MOF w Jean and Kim on th last day of school. Keely and Shafa pangsehed us. So left th three of us. Hurh. Getting my Loafers shoes VERYVERY soon >: ) Th purple/grey ones from North Star :)

Currently entertaining my bored Boyf :) Anyway, Im still racking my brains and killing cells thinking what t get for Boyf >: ( And its Marina Barrage on tenth :D So, 8 more days ! :D

Ok, Im honestly bored w this post, and Im sure alot of you are alrdy, sooooo, byebyeeeeeeeeeee! :)
And PS: Please look out for my colourful hair which looks like a cheeken tail when I tie it up -.-

XOXO dearieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

th wake up call.

2009-10-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

Its time t change. A whole new and different attitude, a whole new perspective. That talk, th tears shed, th reflections done, will they be good enough t change things?

Sometimes I wonder, if they didnt come in, will G's attitude t us be different? We work hard, we all do, but we all screw up. They screw up too, but why are we treated differently?
Its demoralising, t know that we're compared w people younger that us, where most of them have no respect for us.

We speak up, we clarify, but do th adults listen t us ?

Everything is all about them manzxc, so tell me exactly, where do we fit in?

Hi biatch, I dont need your stupid comments t live by my day or approve of who Im with. I dont mind you thinking Im desperate, but I guess some people are just so pathetic and desperate as t stead w an alumni, yea? I dont wanna pollute or shoot my mouth because of some small, pathetic person, but I guess things put bluntly goes through more clearly, yea? So, lets say, you stay out of mine, and I stay out of yours. I have no idea why are you standing in my way, but look up at me, shorttay. Fat, stupid, ugly, totally not my type, stay out, and shut that dog mouth of yours, you dont hurt me yanoe, just know your place, and look carefully at who you are shooting at about me, casue I dont like t entertain dogs.

One year is finally over. But in this one year, so many things happened, and so many things changed.

Now we walk along th corridoors, passing each other with a mere hi.

No more fooling around, no more pinching of cheeks, just a simple 'Hi' and 'Bye'.

I guess you wont no longer need me, now you have her.

Maybe if we could start back at 1, maybe if we could just go back t square1.

Maybe Im not one of th most important people in your life anymore, and yes, maybe she just totally replaced me.

Im sorry, that's th only thing I can say.

I guess you wont need me anymore too, cause I guess there's just so many girls by your side that one less doesnt matter. Afterall, one gone can easily be replaced. That's what you do right ?

You've got your life, and I have mine now. I guess we'll just go our own seperate ways, and maybe one day hopefully, things can go back t normal. I will be me, and you will be you. And we would joke and laugh till th sun rises, and chat till we fall asleep.

Yes, that's what I want, but no, things have changed.

To: H, J, D,

Im sorry.

There's only one thing, two do, three words, four you.

2009-10-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel so so cooped up in where I am right now.

Im tired. Training yesterday was crazy. Went down t CCAB. Made t hop like cute little bunnies on one leg like crazy without stopping across th whole netball court 2 times each. Dinner at Kobanyashi(?) w Regena, Keely, Char.G and Shimin. Crapped soso much standing in th middle of th station and laughed like mad. Had Tchoukball today, me and Keely were grumbling cause we were aching all over. Teamed w Kim, SiJie, Keely, Claire and Bernice. We seriously rock man :) 3 people, thrash 7girls; Keely throw ball from one end t th other t me/Kim, we catch and score! Lunch w teammates, then went t Keely's house t do seniors' presents :) Left at 6.30pm, K's mum was so nice, want t dapao dinner for us :)

Im tired, so so tired.
Im sorry for th crappish attitude, I love you boyf :) <3

2009-10-26T16:33:00.005+08:00

-Blessed-

If I could just turn time back, I would turn time back t when I first saw you. :)

Holyshit, I feel like I just made a big mistake.

Argh, bad Charmaine, banish that thought! >: (

Okie, lets see. I forgo Sentosa trip for training :P

Anyway its useless going Sentosa la, claim what crap that its a "class outing", everybody seem so enthu, end out ley? Only people from THAT clique are going. WTF? Zzz. Why would I want t go then? Plus ShiHui isnt going, ~~and someone will stick t me like shit, and I dont really like some people,~~ so its totally a waste of time going.

Anyway, met Keely at Mac for breakfast, and then headed t school w a bunch of funny people :) Couldnt find my gummybears :( Training was ok, kinda tiring thou. I think I sprained/shocked my wrist again -.-

Headed t PizzaHut w another bunch of lovely people for lunch again, were so hungry we were like, asking th waiter t hurry up w our soups :D crapcrapcrap, and then homeeeeeeeeeeee :)

~~My shoulder and wrist hurts~~.

YAY, SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS TH MOVIE :D

P/S: I LOVE Justin Bieber :)

Jealous anot BOYF :D

2009-10-23T17:13:00.004+08:00

"Sometimes when you wait too long for th perfect moment, that perfect moment will just pass you by."

One word t sum up my whole day: Fun
Went down t 7-11 t grab 2 bottles of Root Beer, which was friggin' heavy I tell you.

Was munching on chips and coke, met YaMei at Admiralty, she so nice, just one word from me and she came down t meet me and help me carry :D

Went straight t our stall t set up blahblah, fast forward those crap.

Stall only open at 9am cause Icecream truck only comes at 9am, so me and Shihui walk around, blahblah. Helped out at th stall ( aye, i did do something okhay. ), shouted alot and finally shift was over! Went t play water games w Jean, Cheng, Leonard, TJ, KwanHao, Junda and MuiHao. Got duperly wet, it was awesome :) Had really great fun w those guys, we were all soaked t th skin k :D Afterwards, IT WAS ICE WATER FIGHT! :P It so happened we had alot of ice left from freezing our drinks and icecream, so we melted th ice and poured on each other. I tell you, th initial feeling was terrible okhay. Cold until you can just drop and die. There was dry ice involved also okhay.

Brought th cooler t th back of th school t play, were like a bunch of crazy kids. Then idk why, 203 guys joined in also, so it was like, this bunch of 06-ers vs those 03 guys. So crazy k, IDK why I just kept pouring water on Kahwei -.- And Mama, typical Mama, went, CHARMAINE TEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! when I poured one bowl on her :)

Didnt manage t find Kuku Goodf, so didnt manage t pour on him :( And KwanHao was such a klutz okhay, he insisted on carrying that bigbig box of icewater, and th next thing you know he overturned th whole thing and all our icewater was absorbed into th road -.-

AND THAT IDIOT WEILUN FOR NO REASON JUST LOVES T POUR WATER ON ME OR SIMPLY JUST CANT AIM. Lets say he wants t pour water on MuiHao that's beside me, he pours, but majority of th water ends up on me -.- Noob. :P

Dried up on th road, went back t class t slack, until Boyf came, and went off w him and TJ. Then ran back t school t find that kuku LaoBa's heartshape -.- Lunch at MOS Burger w TJ and Leonard, and then homeeeeeee ~

YESSSSSSSSSSS, Tempted is in my hands!

I LUV YA XIAOHUI (K)(K)(K)

Thank you for everything :) Thanks for th heart-shaped jelly :)

Till the ends of the world.

2009-10-21T17:32:00.006+08:00

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

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Ok hello people. Realise how many 123456789years since I touched th laptop. Partially its because Im busy + tired, and also because my laptop is SPOILT ( $%^%$ )

(Ok currently Boyf is bullying me >: , sumpa not gonna talk t him anymore :D Anyway, th reason why Im posting is because SOMEONE told me on Sunday: Wah, so long never post anything in your blog alrdy right!)
(PS, caution, super lengthy and wordy and kinda-picturey post ahead.)

Ok anyway, Thursday (16 Oct) was th last paper, History. Guess I wont screw up that paper. Rushed home t bathe and get ready and then headed down t Lotone for movie w Cheng, Jean, Kimbly and Keely. Caught th show Surrogates.

Didnt really like it thou, but I'll still rate it 3/5 for th goodlooking casts :D (FYI, Jean and I were like, practically swooning okhay.)

In fact, I find it quite ridiculous, because in this world, there are so many PLASTIC people ( or in my language, BIMBOS. ) going around, and now you want metal people t dominate this world? Ha!

So I spent most of th movie time munching on Popcorn ( Sadly I finished my FAT hotdog bun way too fast D: ), scaring Keely and Jean, and pushing th popcorn away from me which WeiCheng and Jean were trying t stuff me with :(

Movie ended damn early, earlier than we expected. So went t th Rooftop Garden t slack !
There's supposed t be alot of photos, but I dont wanna turn this post into some picture spam post thing.
My two favourite shots, obviously without Keely cause she ran away and so we might as well make use of her and ask her help us take. Second shot is a candid shot, currently my wallpaper :D (Until someone stops deleting our photos, this shot shall remain as me wallpaper.)

Ok lets see, what else. On Saturday I finally got t meet up w cousins - CandyJie & Zi En for a day of serious fun :D C picked us up late thou, and we went down t FarEast for shopping and lunch. Wanted t get a bikini (I know, shutup.) but decided t splurge on a vintage bag instead :D Lunched at th Chicken Rice stall Sharleen recommended, (Y)! Was forcing Zi En into bikinis (Obviously we failed, she's like th imitation of Keely). Just imagine ZiEn/KEELY in a bikini! (I would actually sell my soul for a glance at Keely in a Bikini :D) Went down t C's house t change first, and headed t WildWildWet at 5.30pm :D Hogged th U-shape slide, it was sheer madness okhay. I was screaming my lungs out, swearing some weird gibbish, and claiming that I would never sit that ride again, and th next thing I know, I was climbing 5stories with that ridiculously heavy float with either C or ZiEn.

And th second stupid thing was that I got stuck going down th bigbig slide because of my Cotton On pants . YOU KNOW HOW PAISEH ANOT HOW PAISEH ANOT. :( And then a attendant asked my cousin : Oh, just now she got stuck on th slide issit ?

Scraped my hand at Shiok River and it bled :( Got out at 7pm and ate KFC :) Hungry I tell you. Ate like a famished pig :) Finished up 2 pieces of chicken and mashed potato and my pepsi in 15mins :) Left th park at 7.40pm and had t walk around in bikinis and pants searching for a toilet -.- Walked around DownTown and then home at 11+pm.

Yes, here's th part about Sunday! It was damn cock can :P After church, met Boyf at 3pm at Jurong East Station and trained all th way t SengKang station, and then that kuku forgot which LRT station t alight and then we took th wrong way and I ended up overstaying in th station and paid 2bucks -.-
Watched hockey match and had dinner at Macs, went back at around 9pm.
Silly boy, love you so so much, although you bullied me so much on that day >: (

Went t Chilli Padi @ Bugis for Peranekan food w Momsie and Sis on Monday. Ate so so much CheeKueh :) (Y)! So so so so so so so satisfied that day. :)

Went school for photoshoot on Tuesday, uber fun :P Keely and Agnes ran off >: ( Fine, their loss. Waited 1hour for turn, and then rushed home, blahblahblah. Met Boyf at Admiralty later t watch Imagine That. at CWP :D Were bored after th show, so he sent me back and I went t sleep after Phua Chu Kang ! :D

Took back HMT, Physics and Chem paper today. Its a disappointment, forget it. Still havent told Momsie about my Physics and overall HMT results. Really dont want her t know cause I know she's quite happy after knowing that I was confident t score well :( HOW ?!
Play w Valerie's Maomao after school :)

Th gentle side of NuEr Jessica, and th Maomao loves me :D

Maomao seriously loves sleeping on my skirt, and Maomao under Boyf's leg.
Tsk, bully Boyf :D BULLY SOMEMORE :D

Ok, my super long post. :D Catching a movie w Daddy later :)
Boyf's bullying me >: ( He dies, MUAHAHHAHAHAHA.

One in a million, a billion, a trillion.

2009-10-18T10:43:00.002+08:00

"The ONLY people you need in your life,
are the ones that need you in their life."

Aw, how true is it?
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And a grrrrrrrrrrreaaaaaaaaat thing t say, Im back t bloggin'! :)
Thou updates will be ~~kinda~~ slow, have been busy eh.
Shall go get ready for church > Piano lesson > Boyf's presentation :)
YAY!
P/S: I miss Boyf alot :(

woohoo!

2009-10-14T13:28:00.001+08:00

1more paper down, thank goodness.
Couldnt get any Physics/Chem crap into my head, be it studying at th library w Boyf and his frens or at home yesterday, so got down t 'bullying XinAn w Cedric' as how that self-proclaimed God said :)
Tried studying again aft dinner, but still nothing went in, slept around 10+pm and only fell asleep at 12+am cause I was super worried about th paper. Woke up at 3am and struggled w my notes, still t no avail. Fell asleep close t 4am, and woke up around 5.45am, blahblahblah. And YESSSSS, I finally got those crap stuck in my head. And th second good thing that God did was that th paper didnt turn out as difficult as how MsKang scared us please -_- Gave me quite a scare that I could actually do th End of Year paper. Standard quite high thou, I have t say.

Was caught for my pink socks today by Tiger during morning assembly. Had a sudden urge t tell him innocently ' But my pink socks are sooooooooo cute!' , but decided against that because I realised that I still had my Physics formulas t memorise! And I finally got t pinch that silly boy's face. *Evil look, LOL. (Yeayea, I know some of you will go : Considering how TALL he is and how SHORT you are. ZZZ)

Sushi w Jean after exams, but not enough t curb my hunger. Mushroom Noodles!
Anyway, Boyf finish all his papers alrdy >: ( And he doesnt need t go school tmr >: (
Last paper tomorrow people, excel this :)
Its History babe, do Mr.H. proud :D
And then its movie afterwards w dearests - ShiHui, Keely, Jean, Weicheng and maybe some others :)
Double Yayness!
Anyway, >Jean&WeiCheng. For th 123456789 times, what th hell is th title of th movie again?!

OK, and lastly, some super crap video I found on Youtube when I was searching for ' Hostel' movie.
Enjoy! :)

press on, drill on.

2009-10-13T15:54:00.000+08:00

Stressed. Tension Headaches. Persevere. Let Down. Sorry.
Im sorry, I think I screwed my Maths Paper.

Happy little girl :)

2009-10-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

Aw, Lit paper and Homec paper today. Headache eh. Do Homec Paper half way got some idiots shouting into th mike just a few metres away from my classroom trying t sound enthusiastic -.- Nuisance. I could pull my hair out doing Lit paper, not because I didnt know how t do, but because I was just so eager t end paper so I could go recess quick *Wink ;) My mind was kinda blank though, couldnt think of more 'Admirable qualities' that Dawan and Kwai possessed.

Anyway, this is t someone, Im sure by now maybe you would never come back t l-ovebitee.blogspot.com anymore, but just t say, thanks for everything, for th cookies, for th lollipop, and for th book. Th cookies were great :) And I do hope, you will be like what you said, carry on w life. :)

Wellwellwell, today Im veryvery high, because Boyf was such a dear today. Serious! He accompanied me t wait for Bren, and then sent me up t my classroom while his was on th first floor. Ahwells, at least climbing that wretched 8 flights of stairs wasnt a chore anymore :) Aw, and he was so cute on th bus la :) Love him so much t th max k :)

Anyway, two papers down, 3 more t go. And Boyf only has 2more :( Which means he wont be in school on Thursday :( Ahwells, shall spend time w him on some other day then :(
Will be watching some IDK what movie on Thursday after that dreaded History paper w WeiCheng, Jean and ShiHui etc. and perhaps Sentosa or what on Saturday w cousins. Oh yea, and did I say that I passed my Church Choir auditions ? And Boyf's reaction was like : ;O You can sing?

WTF.

Heh, ok fine, but still, GAMBATEH OK PEOPLE :) And I love you alot Boyf :)

I saw th video already. Everybody's saying Imma lucky girl, but I guess th one's who's lucky will be th girl who ends up w Bren. Jiayou :)

Cupid.

2009-10-11T10:58:00.000+08:00

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

I love him and that's th beginning of everything.

This time, Im gonna prove everybody wrong :)

Going low-key peopleeeeeee ~

Only dearests shall know :)

Song: Tongue Tied.

2009-10-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy.
Hello people, its like ten thousands years since I touched th computer.
Im stressed, but nevertheless Im still happy :) There's no more cold war going on between me and Brother, well, that's a Happy Factor 1. And, there's an improvement in my English grades, yipee ! And lastly, Im finally able t feel lesser pain in my shoulder, and Im able t revert back t that crazy Charmaine with crazy passes. Its just that th passes are REALLY going haywire, but hey! Almost everyone's passes are right! *winkwink. I figured that it was really pointless brooding over all those, and well, at least just grow up and work harder.

Had been t Daddy's business dinner and Su-Ting Cousin's wedding dinner in just one week ( ahhh, food. ), been through really crappy stuffs ( but with th accompany of Bannana, Goodf and of course, you {: ) but made it through alive. Caught Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs w Fahry, he was really nice, he waited at least 2hours for me :) Been t Keely's house again for some ~~not so~~ productive studying while watching SpongeBob and Nickolodeon(?) shows :) Its all Keely's influence okhay :)

And lastly, someone made me mad and upset today, but happy too. I realised I couldnt stay angry much w him, because th sight of him just melts my heart. I dont care what th truth is alrdy, I just want things t remain th way they are now.

You know who you are, because you are th one whose cheeks I so wanna pinch :)

P.S: Shush, Mama I know you know.

Shhh, *wink.

A little more love.

2009-10-04T16:16:00.000+08:00

" When Im with you, I'll make every second count cause I miss you, whenever you're not around."

I need Goodf badly now :(

Its th end of th road, but I still cant let you go.

2009-10-01T15:18:00.001+08:00

When Im with you, I will make every second count cause I miss you

Eoy has officially started. I feel like Im enslaved(?) t my books. My Physics are still like crap, I have no idea how am I going t pass eh! Dammit, I cant even do applicational questions >: ( Have been staying back t play basketball for teeny little while and then its studies all th way. TeckJin had wasted about 3hours of my time yesterday waiting for him, I got a hunch t charge him for my time, 5$/s. And that will be 900$ that he owes me. Naw, he just owes me big time for something :) Dragged Leonard into shops and CottonOn w me t shop, aw poor him, have t help me carry things and answer my questions: Eh, nice anot uh? Eh, this one can? LOL. Trip back w Leonard and TJ was fun, we decided t prank someone! :P Heeeee, shush k :)
So, plans for th weekend: Go cuzzie's wedding, jog. Yay.
Idk why but I feel so bloody upset over something. Plartar Boy said one thing, crushed me. Both he and I told myself repeatedly that A's word cant be trusted, dont take things so seriously. But what B asked me really forced me t confirm my doubtfullness. Th moment C entered into my life D just disappeared. Dont you just find it so coincedental?

Exactly 1month, 2days and 2hours ago,
Something inside me was crushed.
Exactly 1month ago,
Something inside of me broke.
Right now, today, that same feeling is back.
Its inevitable, isnt it?
My ligament never healed.
And maybe it never would.

Quickly go away! :(

2009-09-26T12:29:00.007+08:00

Hitting th books at K's house.

Hitting th stadium w Bananna.

But all those dont bury that feeling I have that perhaps I wont be able t play anymore.

"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart."

1,2,3 ..

How many times have I failed?

1,2,3 ..

How many times have I succeed?

Maybe lesser times than when I failed.

I just want my ability back, is that just too much t ask for?

我感动天，感动地，可是却感动不了你的心. Why?

2009-09-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

Ok, proof that I did study k. Actually is I ask Keely take for me one. I was trying hard not t laugh k, got alot of NG peektures, cause all not nice! LOL. Me and Keely were studying ( After dk how long of playing ) while waiting for th stupid Streaming Talk t start. Aw, she was so cute, playing w my lion/bug pencils and my KinderJoy car.

Aw man, stress stress stress. I feel like I cant catch up at all. Orals down, auditions and EOYs left. What if I cant make it and my EOY results CMI?

Back t th times when you didnt know me, and I didnt know you.

2009-09-14T23:25:00.001+08:00

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Ok, this has been th longest time since my blog was last updated. I think.
My week hadnt been really facinating or such, found that I didnt treasure my time, kinda regret it now :( Crap, Charmaine, you just dont know how t settle yourself down at th right time!
Ok, so summaryyyyy ~

Comex Road Show @ Suntec (Saturday) - Crap, was supposed t get me new headphones, pink laptop and phone. But couldnt find nice purple/lime green headsets ( Super tempted t get th ear plugs, BUT HOW T PLUG IN W A TRAGUS PIERCING?! Gosh, maybe should consider closing it >.< ) Forgot t bring down old pathetic laptop t trade in. I mean, they give you cash for your old or spoilt laptop man!
Chilli Padi @ Bugis (Thursday) - Headed down t Bugis w Mom and Sis. Saw Aunty Lucy (!!!) OMG, super hyper, but he/she was in a rush, so ahwells, didnt manage t get a peek or something :( (P/S: His make up is like, bloody thick la!) Nonya food was superb (Y) Ate t my fill, gosh, could hardly move. Shopped around, saw a uber cute dress and thong shoes, gonna get them one day before 3Oct :D

Ok so basically that's how my week went -.- But anyway I will be like, unactive in computer and obviously Blogger, so there's a retarded peekture of me on top t at least remind you how I look like :D Ok pathetic but, IDK, just an urge t upload it -.-

Its gonna be a vehli hectic period. Last week of trainings ( Thanks Gosh! ), Oral this Friday ( -'- ), Auditions this Saturday (!!!) and EOYs on th 1 Oct onwards ( @#$%^& ). Sometimes I feel like 24hours in a day is simply just too little. Why couldnt there be 36hours?

I gotta mug REAL hard. No matter how tough it will be but I will make a difference in everything I do. Its finally th chance t finally prove t everyone that Im not just some idiot who cares of nothing but her passion or is daunted by anything. Yes, procrastination or laziness may come in my way but I wont let anything daunt me.

Lastly,

Charmaine's Law:
This is life. We work HARD for what we WANT.

Click on link t be brought t peektures! :)

2009-09-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

Give me some time alone.

Yeayea, Im that stupid, idiotic, disobedient, pathetic sister of yours.

Im just some nobody t you that can only know th reason why you are mad from her junior.

FROM HER JUNIOR.

Hurtful much?

Naw, you dont know, cause you arent th one who had t find out things from your fucking junior.

How would you like th same thing t happen t you?

And lastly, clarify and confirm your stupid assumptions first before you shoot anything at me.

I dont take things lying down anymore.

Why? Cause I realise that perhaps you're just another person in my life that's making it even more hard t live on.

Thanks for all th hurt. Thanks.

Flashers, peektures and stuffs will be out asap.

Currently uploaded in FB: RP Round 1

Go BP Flash!

2009-09-06T20:07:00.005+08:00

Only uploading certain peektures here, rest can be found on facebook :)
(Link will be given asap, now dk why cannot upload.)

Ok, how many days never touch th com alrdy.
Shall post about th match tomorrow after th second round.
Played w Broadricks ( 9-3 ), Anderson ( 4-10 ), Queenstown ( 10-3 ) and I forgot th last school.
Th scores are roughly roughly about there one, couldnt remember.
Played th last quater of th first game onwards.
Screwed 3 balls, but shall do better tomorrow in th second round. GO BP FLASHERS!
Sprained my ankle before carnival, how suey. Thanks Sharleen for th ankle guard :)
Went for dinner at Pasta Mania w Teammates, really vehli high + noisy on th way there and when eating :)

PS, I tell you one secret. I got a vehli cute teammate, she got lost in th toilet, plus she was running around th toilet, super cute la she! :D

To Flashers: This is life. We fight for what we want.
JIAYOU!

The truth.

2009-09-01T17:03:00.002+08:00

When you find out the truth about Santa, something else more startling happens. You realise you're not a kid anymore, but someone who knows that reindeer can't fly. So from now on, you're never going t look skyward, your heart vibrating in your ribs, hoping for a glimpse of sparkling sleigh dust. Somwhere deep inside your soul, a door of possibility closes.
That's what this moment feels like. And we both sense it. Th door hasn't just closed. It's slammed shut.
Its just you and I.

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My life is in a whirl right now. So many things.

Confused and stuck, I want t play in th carnival on Saturday, but there are restrictions when I want t lift up my hand. Im scared th pain wont go away by Saturday. Im scared I cant ever exert th force on my hand without feeling th piercing pain.
Its really hard t wear a happy face infront of one person, and then strip that mask off infront of someone else and show how things really are.

Broken and shattered, I tried t piece th pieces back tgt. But soon I realised that these pieces, dont fit anymore.

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Girl, cheerup and STAY STRONG ok. I know it is hard right now. but Im sure you can make it.
Honestly you are one of th strongest girl I've seen.
I know things like you said, are always going your way, but there's a saying goes: When things are going your way, your on th wrong lane
Change lanes girl. Whatever happens I'll always be there for you, for you t cry on, for you t lean on, for you t hold on t when you are feeling low.
Stay strong, bubbly and be yourself. We'll pull through this together. You are not alone.

This, was never ever made t die in th first place.

2009-08-31T22:57:00.001+08:00

Ok. So today was CIP. T summarise it up, it was kinda fun :P
Didnt wait for YaMei but went t Piekia w MsKang t help her w her stuffs. Carry th boxes of PieKia t school, smell until vehli hungry :(

Had th supersuper retarded ACES day workout. Retarded much man. Me, ShiHui and LauNehneh over there laughing laughing laughing :) Yes, and I spent my time candid-ing people :)

And of course when two goodfs get tgt this is what they do right :P

Afterwards was th boring stuffs. And went back t class for PieKia which MsKang treated all of us :D

They say my head is vehli small, and LauNehneh's head is vehli big :P Big but empty, Small but full. LOL

Then was th boring *Yawn, celebration thing, could just doze off through but was too hot :(

Afterwards, finally we set off for CIP at Block 353! :D

Lonelyyyyyyyy~ I am so Lonelyyyyyyy~ I have nobor-deeee~ Im on my ownnnnnn~

LOL, aw someone was so lonely :)

So we split into our group and started working :) Collected quite alot of old newspaper and clothes, LauNehNeh dont let me carry heavy things >: (

And there was this house, with two dogs, keep barking, macam no tomorrow >: ( And you know me la. See dogs eyeball all fly away. So I went : If dog come t gate, I 先逃跑, but if th dog come out I 跳楼 liao. LOL. So kuku eh, so I went t th other house, and then when I saw th dog come out I literally ran ok. :(

So besides that, we had some funny times too :)

Apparently in th following peektures, our Noob Dear JunDa had weird sense t put smaller sized things below bigger sized things and expect them t balance, so since they Dont, he sat on them. So for my convinience and eagerness t get rid of th newspaper I was carrying and this insect-filled speakers ( As claimed by Dyan ) I started dumping them on Junda, so th rest followed suit and he was filled till his chin :) So, CHEESE my dear son! :)

So in total we collected this much, and this much was collected by 4people from a few houses only :P

Ok, so when th whole CIP thing was coming t an end, we brought everything from Block 353 t Block 352. And, JunDa, as usual, was being so, .... :D

Oh no LauBu gonna take peekture again! Help I cant carry them anymore they are falling down!

Yes, that was what JunDa said, and this peekture was taken as he was shrieking and laughing and balancing his newspaper and trying t run past me, but kinda failed attempt eh :P

And then, skipskipskip th boring parts, I guess peektures are more interesting eh :P

Ok, so Leonard claimed that his candids today are so unglam, ok, wait, SINCE WHEN ARE CANDIDS GLAM?! :D

Kk, there are a couple of nicenice peektures I love so much, and th peektures have spaces inbetween them because Im using www.draft.blogger.com which kinda suck in peekture arrangement >: ( I kinda semi-given up about finding a way t remove th bloody spaces. So forget it. And bear w it, at least there are peektures right :D

So after helping MeiMei w his cramped leg I went off t Lot1 t have lucnh w Joice and Keely at some Jap/Korean(?) Fast Food chain. (Y) Thumbs up :D Had Gelato Yoghurt ( SHHH, no one tells Nehneh I ate, if not he's gonna kill me. ) and then walked back t school for trg.

Slacked slacked abit w those ladies and Maria, practised side pass using left hand and shoot w left hand and Im kinda getting th hang of it ! :D Yay, Charmaine is one happy girl ! :D

Training started and I could only sit there and watch, shoot abit w Sam cause I was damn bored.

Lalalala, boring things over, aft trg played Volleyball w Keely and Jean, while at th same time being their coach (!?ZXC) My hand is kinda hurting even more thou :x SHHHH.

Then walked back t Lot1 w Joice and Keely and bought Gelato Yoghurt again! ( SHHHHH, D: ) And then it was home-sweet-home :D

I have no idea why Im so tired today, but ahwells, I guess CIP really tired me out :X

And anyway, I found a slow song for Auditions alrdy k ! But Im still skeptical about it, IDK why.

Above All

And anyway, recently my blog got alot of Teas ley, different flavoured one, got Greentea, now is Appletea. My gosh, so cute la . LOL.

Sayooooooo, better post this post alrdy, cause I know cfm got people waiting for it one! :P ( Ok, Charmaine, Shutup. )

Sometimes I dont know why but you leave me hanging there.

2009-08-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Gosh, -'- man. Forget th previous post. I hereby declare that Chinese Doctors are suckers >: ( Their predictions are so bloody wrong la. Predict that I got a dislocation, turns out that it's just a Ligament pull. ZZZ.
Church > Piano > TTSH > KK Hospital.
Ok, I had t go t A&E both times, because X Ray clinics werent open. TTSH refered me t KK Hospital for my own convinience because Im apparently, 'under-age'. Went t KK Hospital, waited waited for my turn. Did an X-Ray, and it was back t waiting. Was watching my Looney Tunes, and messaging :) Results were out, and Doctor said most probably its a ligament pull, my report will be out by either Monday/Tuesday and faxed t my dad so that I can bring it t th stupid Chinese Doctor so they can do th correct treatment for me, which is vehli possibly accupunture. Omfg. Any idea how friggin' scared I am? Nehmind, at least got people pei me can le ^^
And Im given another MC (-'-) which lasts FOR 1 FUCKING MONTH. Great. Now th Carnival is out of th question, Jean's gonna kill me. But as for volleyball, at least I can still play :) I think, LauNehneh better let me play ! :(

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Tomorrow's Teachers' Day celebration, maybe not going back trg afterwards :X Maybe tmr I will be priority during CIP, cause I wont be able t carry those newspapers :D So JunDa/WeiCheng gotta do th job :)
Ok people, end of post, celebrate and pray for me k :)

P/S: If my arm doesnt get better in 3-4weeks time, I gotta go surgery t 'put' th pulled ligament back tgt :( Maybe sewing it :(
P/PS: I dont want t go TCM, cause Im scared of Accupuncture, but Im more scared of surgery!

dont know dont know.

will things just stay this way, or will they not.

if it wasnt for my injury, will you still care for me?

Im never gonna say goodbye.

2009-08-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

Today is sucky day. Went t school, and suddenly during Chinese class my neck was super pain, Joice said it was a twisted nerve because th pain shot up from th bottom of my neck t my brain. Couldnt really move my neck. Classes were ok, I got 23/30 for my Lit, and 18/20 for my English speech.

After school went t play volleyball w WeiCheng and co, play until vehli shiok :B Went off for study session at 1.30pm, and then headed off for trg aft study session. Training was cool, my weak wrist started hurting again, and that resulted in sucky passes :C . Played matches, and sueysuey in one match I rammed into Nisa and fell on my right shoulder. Pain literally seared through my right arm and my toes curled in pain. Its really pain until, even screaming or squeezing your eyes helps t relief any pain.
So I didnt manage t play anymore :C

Aft trg Daddy picked me up and had dinner at SunShine Place. Went t th chinese doc and he said that its either a dislocated shoulder or cartilage tear. Either way its equally bad ok :C Going t see another doctor tomorrow, on my own :C

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This is so stupid. All my hard work and effort went down th drain thanks t an injury. Maybe MsG is right, Im too rough alrdy. This injury, is gonna cost me th Carnival next Saturday and th volleyball league. LauWC say he's not gonna put me in until my arm gets better :C
Right now I cant even do simple things like lifting up my hand or combing my hair.
What if I cant play anymore? What if I dont get a chance anymore? What if this becomes permanent or gets worse? What if .. ?

I want nobody, nobody but CHIUUUUU ~

2009-08-27T19:21:00.001+08:00

Th song 'Nobody' is currently stuck in my mind, so poor peeps who chat w me on MSN have t endure my 'singing' of Nobody :)

I want nobody nobody but chiuu ~

Hi people. My day is kinda fine, ~~pon~~ skipped CCM w ShiHui, TJ, WeiCheng, Leo, JunDa and Desmond t do CIP :P Eh, dont see us playplay take CIP as an excuse t skip CCM okhay, we are actually vehlivehli kind-hearted people who 'give up' our CCM time t do CIP k :) Not that I mind anyway :)

So bused t Lot1, drenched in th rain and some idiots kept kicking water at my leg, then my shoe and socks all wet >: ( Crapcrap in th bus, reached and dapao Mac, sat outside because some idiots go pangseh us, say want t dapao one in th end they went MosBurger and eat there :( So me, ShiHui, WeiCheng and Desmond lonely lonely lo ^^

Eateat and then left first t give out flyers. On th way WeiCheng stepped onto a worm and didnt know it, and poor me was behind him staring at th worm repeatedly getting squashed by him :((((( So gross pleaseeeeeeeeee ~

Did 7 floors w WeiCheng. MsKang actually say girls cannot do th CIP, so since me and ShiHui doing so WeiCheng insisted that we pair up w one boy. Crapped while putting th flyers, WeiCheng dont let me go alone >: WTF. And I siasueyed myself in th carpark -_- A small terrier was starting towards me without a leash and I screamed LAUWEICHENGGGG ! and then TeckJin and JunDa and Leonard and WeiCheng all laugh at me :( Not fair la , Im afraid of dogs, alot ok.

But anyway, lovely people, I so wanna get this baby!

Its something like BlackBerry, but its WAY nicer than that. :) Ohmygosh, th colours are so nice, I have no idea which one I want :( But first must PHSYCO my dad first -.- Or save up. Gosh, how long am I going t take ?! :(((((( But still my mind is set on this baby :D Ms Ow has this phone, so everytime I go for Art Rep duty I see her phone on th table I go so green D:
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But anyway people, watch this video. See what happens when you get into God's bad books :)

Ok, brief description in case you are lost.
This particular church in America is stupid enough t go against th 10Commandments and accept homosexuality in their church as their beliefs, which resulted in angering God. Then one day, without any warning, a tornado struck. And mind you, whenever a tonardo is going t strike weather forcasters and Scientists will ALWAYS know thanks t th great technology we have today :)
So, th tornado strikes th church, and so ACCURATELY struck th steeple of th church. See how accurate it is? Imagine such a HUGE tornado, only striking th steeple but leaving th roof of th church INTACT. Gosh, who else could be so wonderful but God?

So people, morale of th story, believe it or not, never break th 10Commandments or sin against God. Even if you do it in th dark and nobody knows, but God does. Its up t you t make your decisions, but make them wisely :)

Ok people, Im off! :)

Th feeling is back again. Last year it came, and then it faded.
This year, it came again, but it made me even more confused.
But today, it came again.
Maybe in th first place I made th wrong decision.

Strong on th outside, weak on th inside.

2009-08-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

Volleyball league today, won Jess' group 25-23. It wasnt a good game played, because me and K were like, vases over there, dk what t do on court and shits. Ahwells, next game, Im gonna do way better. And I managed t service over th net and score a point, I tell you, but then right, some idiot say that is cannot step on white line, while th referee say is cannot step on red line, then sueysuey I go step on red line mah, ZZZ.

Training was crazy, MsG ask me t relax, cause she see I play until veh overly-excited, but I think its more of overly-hiong -_- Vehlivehli tiring I tell you. Ran here ran there, tired until lazy at times, dont wanna go for th ball, Goodness, lazy bones. Must find someone t scold me when laziness kicks in.

Went for dinner aft trg w ShiMin and CharG. We were scared 'shitless' by three vehli-de-cute cats. -.- Scared until change tables, dont dare take out things. Can scream somemore :D
Homed at 8pm.
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Im honestly vehlivehli tired of waiting and waiting for you alrdy :(

Gets better in time.

2009-08-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

From what I know, friends pick you up when you fall and crumble. Friends never leave you even when you are in th wrong. Friends stick by you, through thick and thin. Friends stay by your side whether you are right or wrong, and they will correct you still if you are wrong. Friends wont step in and out of your life as and when they want t, and lastly, Friends will always be your friends not because of who you are, but because they love you.
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School literally sucked today for me. PE was a bloody screwup because of th _____ _____. Only a couple know, so yep. Then played volleyball during recess, and was called up by DM after recess for an untucked shirt, and he wanted t scold me for taping up my ring finger because I fucking sprained it. How pathetic. 'Reasoned' out with him using th CharmaineTeh way, and he shutup and let me off. LOL.

Blahblahblah, played abit after school, had fun sitting under th sun w ShiMin and laughing (Shhh) at em, some people ;D Then went off t meet that kuku brother of mine. Trained back w YaMei instead of going swing w them because fatigue was really eating me up.

Homed and had a big quarell. Argh, forget it. Things arent going anywhere. Some parts just make me want t give up and walk away and never come back. Some other parts want t stay behind and just crumble down. But I know I will never break down infront of her .

Scared, because I dont want t feel this way.
Worried, because Im afraid if things go out of hand we wont be friends anymore.

On th verge of just crumbling down.

2009-08-24T22:43:00.001+08:00

What you see, may not just be what you perceive.

What you perceive, may not be what you see.

Hi people. Im finally back t posting with a decent ( I think ) peekture. My lappie and MSN is dying these few days, dk why my Mozilla can suddenly crash for no reason and my MSN keeps sending me error reports. Its bloody irritating. Makes me so pissed I just threw my laptop aside and went t find other things t entertain me these few days.

I've found out that I've failed yet another subject - Higher Mother Tongue. I've alrdy failed my Physics. Both subjects are my weakest subjects. Im disappointed in Physics, but Im even more disappointed in Higher Mother Tongue, because I feel that I didnt study hard enough for it. But whats th point right now, studying even harder for it. No matter how I try I still fail. That, I dont mind. But th worse thing is that after a stressful period you arent allowed t have a break. When you want t have a break, people say that you are lazy and have no determination. But what's wrong with having a break for just one day ?

Training today was uber tiring. We started out with 10rounds and then th usuals. Somehow I feel that I lag alrdy, my drive is shit, and everything is going haywired. At this crucial time when Carnival is coming up, Im expected t stop going for training jujst for a fucking study session. It doesnt make sense. Am I supposed t be studying 24/7?

Dragged myself aft training, went for dinner and had my mushroom noodles.
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Im really tired. Im really tired of being caught in th middle and have t be in th middle and being squashed in th middle.
You think its easy for me t tell him all that but you dont know how Im feeling inside.
You think its so easy but things never turn out as simple as you think.
Im sick of always having t live in your accusations and living everyway your way.
Im exhausted alrdy, Im really exhausted and drained out till I dont even want t step back into th house once Im out.
Im exhausted, will you listen t me?

He took th fall just t save my soul.

2009-08-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

Exams are FINALLY over.

I know la, I was kinda jealous when I saw friends and others rejoicing when th last bell rang and all left for their movies or lunchies and all that but I had t rush t th Art Room with TJ t rush out paper works just for th bloody ingrateful class who does nothing but t make so much noise and make things hard for me and TJ. And call me a good daughter eh, when I went down for my lunch and before heading for my TRAINING (Another proof of a sucky finally-exams-are-over day), bought Strawberry yoghurt for TJ cause IDK why I thought he wont have his lunch on time. So, yea. :)

Training started, was kinda slack, MsG didnt come, heard that she's sick, but MrTay came instead. Trained normal stuffs, was doing passes w YanLin, and my poor ring finger got smashed by her pass cause I didnt catch properly. ZZZ. Everyone quickly squatted and only me, YanLin and Claire were standing up when lightning kept striking :( You know, all three of us were TALL people, so yanoe how dangerous was that :) Went t multi-purpose hall for trg instead. Was kinda disappointed in myself thou, I had no idea why I let th lights affect my vision and th slippery floor affect my performance. IDK, I feel like I cant have anymore screwups ever since th Zonals incident ( FYI its still haunting me k D: ).

Training ended at 4.30pm. Slack at th court until around 5plus. Lied down and just stared into th sky and let things run through my mind. Crapped with Keely who was lying on my stomach and ShiMin who was lying on her stomach, funny times :) Pei-ed Keely shoot, and then left afterwards.

Literally dragged myself home, was so tired I almost changed my mind about movie night. Prepared and stuffs, then went CWP for dinner and movie w Mum and Sister. Watched The Proposal instead of Where got Ghost cause no more seats :(

The Proposal is really nice, I rate it 9/10. Seriously, go watch it :) Homed at 11+pm and it was bed straight for me.

Supposed t go out w LinQi sister today, but Im so tired I couldnt get out of bed and I was broke, so had t cancel it :( Im really sorryyyyyy ~ Many times wanted t go out one, but Im always not free, now Im free and I cancelled it :(

Aish, me and brother, poor people. Aft exams he will be having his Piano exams soon, Jiayou uh ! I know you can do it one :D Like me you never finish learning one piece but still can get Distinctions one ^^ Just do your best and God will do th rest :D. As for me I'll be having a RP Carnival on 5th Sept, and I'll be playing in th Volleyball League host by our school in view of Post Exam Activities with WeiCheng, MuiHao, Leonard, Jean and Keely. :D Yayness ! On top of that Im still preparing for my bloody English Speech next week and my WorshipTeam-Auditions next month. Help!

Standing here, in Your Presence, thinking of all th good things You've done. And I'll worship You for who You are.

Not here nor there.

2009-08-19T17:32:00.002+08:00

I.Passed.My.Physics.
By.Negative.Two.Marks.

Yes, that shows how stupid I am.

When MsKang was giving out th paper I hoped that I was one of them that when she would say : Well done! or Great improvement! t me when I receive my papers.

I crossed my fingers, but I was amongst th last t receive it.

One glance at my marks and all my hopes were dashed.

Why? I studied so hard, but I just had t fail.

But, what MsLee said is right.

This failure is yet another wake up call for me.

Im gonna work even harder, because Im motivated t do even better.

Just one more year girl, just endure this bloody subj for One.More.Year.

And then no more Physics for you, just Chem and Bio (Hopefully).

Well, at least I failed in my CT than in EOYs.

( I must thank that 203 boy who's motivated attitude inspired MsLee t tell us all those things in class today. LOL )

Its stupid when you know that you've laid a trap for youself, but you just dumbly walked into it.

2009-08-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

After laughing, you realise that you feel really, really, tired.

How much longer is this gonna last?

Not tired, but exhausted.

2009-08-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

Im starting t hate this world alotalot. Th CyberWorld's so screwed up, so friggin' lag, my Mozilla Fox keeps crashing and my internet's lagging. Facebook's rotting away, lagging like there's no tomorrow. Blogger is getting more and more weird. My PhoneWorld is so screwed up, always getting pok at th middle of th week. Th World itself is getting dominated by electronic things, there's just so no space for bonding and love. Everyone's busy and absorbed in their own work and schools and their hobbies, definitely no space for their own personal time. People are losing their marbles, what th fuck are they thinking of? Scamming people of their money which causes th world's economic downfall? Killing innocent animals for their fur and leaving them there t endure a painful, slow death? This world is crazy, too crazy alrdy. Th end of th world is coming, just as th Bible had said. H1N1 is yet another sign - Crazy and weird viruses will start t appear when th end time is near. Now what, H2N3(?) ?! Goodness. I dont recognise this world anymore. 2009 is a very different year as compared to 1995.

Homework, exams, trainings all breathing down my neck. I have no time for myself, no time for my own thinking, no time for Piano, no time for social life. Im just so glad that all these will end next week. All I have t do is t endure one more week, and then all th tension headaches will be gone, all th headaches will be gone, all th stress will be gone, and Daddy will be back.

Hi, my dk how manyth ranting post. Have been busy trying t concentrate on my work, so it seems like Im posting every 3days. Been trying t find confidment but I realised that a girlf needed more help than me. Hey girl, I know its hard, but you gotta be strong and move on. Dont let yourself get tied down t this place because of an idiot. Remember, life's not worth idiots. He was th one who let you down. If he claimed that he loves you alot, he will love you for who you are, not love you but hate your attitude. Im always here for you, remember. Goodness, my heart totally broke when I saw her in that state, and its all that idiot's fault. I swear, th next time I see him, my blood's gonna boil like wtfbbq higher than 100Degrees -_-

Anyway, th past three days were interesting, I fell sick in class with a temperature of 37.9Degrees and went down t th General Office t check my temperature. I swear their thermometer is so fucking screwed up. See? I told you th world's screwed up these days. They took my temperature and it read 37.6Degrees, while YaMei, who was down with 38Degrees, was only 37.1Degrees. Yes, both of us, who go t school together, fell sick with th same illness - sore throat and fever. So much for partners eh.

Trainings are still ok, just that before training started goodfs kept fussing over me :P ShiHui was telling me: YOU FEVER YOU STILL GO TRAINING YOU FAINT I SEND YOU T HOSPITAL UH! during trainings and before trainings :) Keely was like: OI YOU SICK LIAO YOU STILL TRAIN !@#$%^ Goodf was telling me: If you dont feel well then must not go training. And etc etc. Teammates were like, acting fierce with me and dont let me do passes with them, so I ended up doing with YanLin again :) All in all, Goodf was th most nice one cause he didnt pretend-shout/act fierce with me :)

Many thanks t Keely and Charmaine and ShiHui and teammates who took care of me yesterday ( Macam my nurses ) and Goodf and many others who were concerned for me :)

Anyway, JiongLin shouted: BLACKIE t me yesterday and he claimed that a middle finger flew t his face ( BTW he's on th second floor and Im on th first floor so how is that possible ?! ) immediately after. Excuse me, my dear nut, it was 2 middle fingers :)

Training was crazy, didnt train ( YOU SEE YOU SEE ), just did some passes. And then all of a sudden it started raining bees. Yes, bees. They just dropped from th heaven dead, some still moving but unable t fly. Everybody screamed and ran indoors, including MsG :P Maria freaked when one fell on her hand, sending her screaming and us following aft her -_- So in th end, as me and XiaoShuang didnt have t train we ended up sweeping up Bees -_- Poor me and her :( So disgusted until I gave up and swallowed my fear and used my shoe t sweep some stray ones up -_-"

Goodness, CTs are coming next week, gotta buck up. Tension headaches are still setting in, temperatures are rising. Th heat is sinking in, goodness, Im drowning.

Bye, because I'm tired.

2009-08-13T16:16:00.002+08:00

No boundaries.

Hi peepo. Im sick. Yes, SICK again, ZZZ. Im always falling sick or getting injured at crucial times. All thanks t my stubborness and insistence t study late last night, and my itchy mouth ( PS: I was eating chips and drinking Ribena until 1am last night ok. ), now Im down w horrible fatigue, cough, sorethroat and worse of th worse, Tension Headaches. In case you peepo have no idea how bad or what is Tension Headaches in th first place, its something like Migrain(?), or maybe not that bad, but still its like many thinthin needles poking into your brain and it hurts worse than painful. Then th most painful part is that, despite th pain, you have no idea which part of your brain its coming from. You know you know ? Like sometimes you get bittened by a mosquito, and it itches so bad that you have no idea where th itch is coming from -_-

Well anyway, Duck is down w sore throat too ! Ahhh, Joyce Gee is down with it too, now is th sorethroat season eh? Take care ok people! Dont stupid like me go eat so much chips so late -_- And if you guys can remember, I had Tension Headaches 2days before my HMT MYE Papers and resulted in me skipping it and getting a black(?) grade for th paper because I cannot resit :(

Ahwells, might as well get on with life and eat medicine and just studystudystudy. Stubborn much huh? Well my body is really hot right now, but I dont have any fever . Im breaking out in cold sweat at times, and my body feels feverish, and it hurts when someone/something touches me. BUT I HAVE NO FEVER !@#$%. Worse still, Im having horrible muscle aches. Played games yesterday during trg, plus muscle cramped halfway but carried on. So now Im like, semi-immobilised because it hurts t move much. GREAT.

Common Tests start next week, starting with all th hardhard subjs, Sciences and then followed by Maths.

Who on earth is that crazy PORK that set th schedule one . ZZZ.

Gotta start muggin' hard alrdy.

Carnival's on 5th September at Republic Poly. B'div's seperated into 2 groups - Watts and Flash. Im from Flash, so that means Imma Flasher :D It all started when I shouted: FLASHERS JIAYOU! Its nice yanoe. Crazy and funny but yet always striving t do better :) GO FLASHERS!

Anyway, lastly before I end this silly post and my rantings and start studying, I realised that alot of people come tell me that they dont know me alot. And my response t them is always : *Innocent look* -blinkblink-

Ahwells, kinda sien of hearing them, so I decided t post up the 'Ten things about Yours Truely' up here on my blog, one each with every post. So lets see when I can complete my 10 things (FYI, I need think alot ok, because I myself dont really know myself much. Idiotic girl.)

Ok, lets go.

1) I dont trust people very easily.

This is a reason why I hardly speak about how I really feel, even if its t a teammate, goodf, boyf (thats if I really do have one) or sister or Mum. That's th reason why I tend t bottle everything up.

Wondering why Im like that? Simple. For th fact that many people (Sadly and unfortunately) I know tend t backstab, gossip, leak out, or are just simply two-faced creatures. Im not pointing out anyone, but feel guilty you must, but dont come blame me because I didnt mention anyone's name.

Most people I know (Sadly girls.) love t just backstab or are just two-faced creatures, with most of them not even knowing it. Once bitten, twice as shy. Of course when it happens t you once or twice you wont be that pathetic and stupid t go into th trap again right?

The next point. Boyf. I always like t not trouble Boyf about my troubles because I dont want or like t add on t his worries or burdens.And partially because I find my troubles really different and kind of disturbing, and though I like t be different and stand out from th crowd I dislike it when Im different in this area.

And as for goodfs, its not like I dont trust EVERY SINGLE ONE of them, but its just that I dont want their perspective of me t change, because I know many people will once they know about my family background and shits. As in th full story. Next, its also partially because I dont want them t worry, I mean, which friend will right?

Another reason is also, I feel awkward when people (face-t-face I mean) comfort me and fuss over me. It makes me feel uncomfortable, IDK why. Its not that I dont appreciate all these care and concern, but I kind of feel weird when that happens, unless that person is a bestf, like Shannon Joy :D.

And lastly, so far, th only people I trust much is Brother, Regena and Goodf Glenn. Th end, End of story :) Ya I know it sounds weird, like Im so fussy, but I grew up in that kind of environment that is full of people who's character just makes it so hard for me t trust in :)

Dang, Im finally done with th first point, Stay tuned k people ! :D

Have you ever loved someone so much it makes you cry?

Have you ever tried t find th words so hard but they dont seem t come out right?

Have you ever wanted something so much you couldnt sleep at night?

Have you ever found someone that you would give your heart to, but only t find out that that one wont give his heart t you?

Have you ever closed your eyes and all you could see is him?

But knowing that all you could do is t wait for that day t come that they would really care.

Have you ever tried telling that you dont love that someone, but everyone says its obvious you do?

You're back, but I'm already gone.

2009-08-10T20:54:00.002+08:00

Take me back into th arms I love.

Saaa-Maine is veli veli happiiiiii ~ HOHO.
Firstly, I was supposed t go watch G.I. Joe w Weicheng and Co, but idk why th girls all back out, so since its so weird for me t go watch a movie w 3 guys, so I backed out. Jio YaMei out, met her at 1.30pm first and slackslack around CWP. Then met her friend HuiTing at 2.30pm and bused down t WoodlandsCheckpoint area t find Duck's pants.
Walkwalk, crapcrap, siaosiao. HOHO, HuiTing veh nice :D Reminds me of my cousin :)
In th end, I tell you, th things there super duper cheap. That's why Im so friggin' happy. And mind you, those are real stuffs that you can find at Bugis as well ok ! Just that most of them are like, way cheaper, even th Satin Skinnies are like about 10$ cheaper!
So say, I bought a bag, a MM Like Black handphone strap, new shoes and a hoodies for 25$. Get this clear, TWENTY FIVE BUCKS ;O
MM Like Black strap: 5$ , Hoodies: 5$ , Bag (dickies like) : 12$, Shoes: 5$
Didnt really manage t find a really nice shoes, liked HuiTing's one la, but then have t fly t FarEast/Bugis for it -o- So settled for th cutecute ballet types lo :)
Anyway, homed at around 5+, bathed then went down t meet Jean t borrow her skirt :) I stupidly left my skirt under th table :( Everytime my uniform got problem also find Jean one :D Thanks yea :P

Anyway, from tomorrow onwards Im really going t study okkkk, so BAIBAI CYBER WORLD, OUTSIDE WORLD AND PHONE WORLD! Anything, call me, messages wont really be entertained, and blog posts will be reduced, Facebook will be avoided, Onlining will be lesser too :P Ciaos peepol. Dont miss me, and start studying ok ! I know you guys havent been much right :P

I have no idea whether you will know anot, but still, Im going t hang on, because I know Im never going t let go :)
Jster.

Char-Teh-Day :)

2009-08-09T10:23:00.001+08:00

ThankYou William for th CharTehDay yesterday (:

Really appreciate it :)

Woodlands Park, CWP, Novena Vehhh-lo-City(!!), CWP.

My plan today is t stay out and go gym, workout until I collapse.
I know my running away is only going t be a temporary relief. Th problem is still there.
I said I will hang on, but I dont know until when. I feel like th end is near.
I feel like Im really falling, but I just cant find th bottom yet.
But there's one thing I know, is that I will never fall infront of you.
You can choose t not care about me leaving anot and continue your fucking stubborn life.
Fine with me, cause Im not going t care anymore.
Stop threatening me with death and such shit.
You can go die, for all I care.

Life's never perfect, but it can be as long as you look at it from different perspective.
There's nothing that's impossible, all you gotta do is t make it possible.
In a time like this, can things really be possible?

We were th reason

2009-08-07T20:03:00.001+08:00

Remember that, nothing lasts forever. Waiting for something is like not caffine not having any impact on you, but you keep drinking and drinking, waiting for an impact but nothing happens at all. Soon you get sick of waiting and you give up. We all get tired of things so easily. After laughing you feel tired, after crying you feel numb. We all do. I got tired of livin' in misery and right now its all going t end.

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Tonight Im falling and I cant get up. I need your lovin' hands t pick me up. And every night when I miss you I can just look up, because I know th stars above are holding you tonight.

I totally screwed Cheering Comp today, Im so sorry 206.
Went t school on my own and met Seniors YanLin and XinHui. Went in and went up t class. Started painting th present peepol's hands yellow and all those things. Went down for Parade and took manymany peektures :D Then ran up and down from 2nd level t 4th t classroom t take our black shirts, but th bloody DM dog go lock th door so we couldnt go in. Changed our cheering position t th 3rd, so at least we not 1st, not so hiong :D Prepared and went up on stage. Me and WeiCheng suddenly stage fright ley! :( Its like, when I went up t stage jumping and shouting my lines I suddenly slipped and my lines just like me, slipped from my mind and I screwed up my lines :( Anyway me and Weicheng were like, going by th paper -_-
So afterwards we zi-high first, dancedancedance, but th dancing last so short :( Results were out but we didnt win, ahwells, we still did our best :}
Afterwards stayed in class t wait for ShiMin with Brother. That noob.
Walked back t Lot, trained back w Brother, ChuDe and Duck. ShiMin pei me home :) Bathed and got ready, bused down in th bloody hot no air-con bus w her and met Brother. Ate at foodcourt and down t library t study :D Tell you secret. Brother veh irritating, keep disturbing me :P HAHAHAHAHA! xD (By th way, it was just exaggerating -__-)
Bought Starbucks and went home.

I want shopping, movie, and slack ! But still, Im motivated t study alrdy. So, Charmaine, GAMBATEHHHHH!

I know its going t be hard, but I know Im going t do it.
I know Im going t get hurt, but Im going t be stubborn and hang on :)

I wont be silly anymore.

2009-08-06T17:09:00.002+08:00

Click HERE for peektures t C'div's match and HERE for Regena's Birthday peektures :D

You didnt forget, but I did. After those few weeks I told myself that I will forget, and I did.

I will no longer be that fool that believed you. Th past has gone and history wont repeat itself again. I've learnt t build a protective shield around myself so I wont get hurt again. I've learnt t put up a strong front again so you wont make me fall again.

After all those few weeks I started t wonder how was I going t stand up strong again, but I did, without you. And now Im going t live my life without you. Cause I know I dont need you t survive. Once is enough. Once bitten twice shy. I wont fall for th stupid shit again.

Hi readers (: I was super tiredtiredtired today because of someone :( Ahwells, forget it.

Usual stuffs. Stayed back t do cheering comp stuffs. I hope tmr turns out ok uh ! Its either CMI ( Cannot Make It ) or CMI ( Can Make It ). LOL, 06 JIAYOU uh :)

Grrr ~ I feel like an idiot, sitting here and staring at it, waiting for something that most probably isnt gonna happen :(

I've made my mind up, no more regrets. Something's that's broken cant be mended and be brand new anymore. You were th one who let go, you were th one who said that feelings that happen for th second time wont be th same anymore. You were th one who didnt care and didnt cherish, not me. You were th one who said that no man is worth your tears. Im gonna stop feeling sad or cry all because of you. Im not gonna feel th pain anymore because I've made my mind up. I had lived months after those weeks without you, and Im going t do th same now.
I've found someone that I love, and Im not letting that go because of history. History is just a past, something that is lost because no one held on t it.
Today Im going t sleep with one less trouble on my mind, because I finally know and comfirm that we're over and done with.

Afterall I've said that Im going t hang on and stay strong. Afterall, no man is worth my tears.

Th road without a stop sign.

2009-08-05T21:41:00.004+08:00

Sometimes when I feel sad, your message will just pop right into my inbox. And then suddenly I wont feel so down anymore. Somehow there's just something about you that makes my heart beat so fast. Maybe like what sister says, its just false hope and all. I tried t lie that I aint affected, but I guess paper can never contain th fire.
I've already spokened. Our love was brokened. No more hurt, no more pain, no more words, no more crying, no more trying.
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Hush Hush - PCD, th best song that can describe what Im going through and wanna say now.
Anyway, before I continue on with my boring (:D) post, I shall post this up first cause this one more impt mah :D

Hey Momsey (: Sorry for th late post (: I guess most of what I wanna say is alrdy writtened in my 3page long 'card' :D Thanks for all th happy memories. Stay strong, tuidongli! Ai si ni le. Momsey against all odds too kk :)

Ok, now t my boring post.
Yesterday met Maria and Kim in th morning, walked t school. Went t 106 and 102 and 1o3 and almost all th Sec2 classes t ask for pads -_- In th end had about 10+ ? :P Gave Mama th present ( 2underwears, one brush, one satay fan, 10+ pads, one tweezer and one back scratcher ) Damn funny please :) She totally stunned zhu :D Then asked her t take out th presents, and told her th meanings behind them, but she just didnt want t take th tweezers out :P In th end, some noob dont wanna go down t assemble, so stayed w her, while she screamed like siaodingdong when we forced her t go down :)
Anyway, stayed back t complete clay stuffs. Then Duck and I cabbed t Lot1 ( That lazy bum, LOL. ) She sponser me one yanoe ^o^ Then ate Subway, went t SaSa w her t get her mask things, looks like Im gna get influenced soon >.< But anyway, got some eye relaxtant patch thingy. Its good (Y) :D . Then she sponser me cab again (!!) t Woodlands Station and bused back home.
Ok, super sorry about th previous post. Deleted it alrdy. So, byebye sadsad :)

Today was kinda boring la. Bought Starbucks Coffee again, cause super tired :( Usual stuffs, classes and lessons. Suddenly all even more boring :(
After school chiongchiong t change, dapao and board bus. Bused down t Kallang Netball Centre t support Juniors' match :) And they came in 2nd, aft SCGS.
Ahh, though its 2nd but you girls put up a great match. I was moved when all of you still persevered on, without giving up knowing you have t play th full 40mins (?) game, getting up when you fell or carrying on strongly when you get hit in th face because there were no substitudes for you guys. No tears, because you guys put up a great fight :)
Bused back t Lot1, and then home, my body aching because of my heavy bag :(

Tomorrow's Eng paper alrdy, Jiayou kk people :)
Peektures will be up on Facebook soon, stay tune for th links ok :)

I told you never t let me go.

2009-08-03T23:29:00.001+08:00

I really cant resist this post. Just ignore this.
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I thank JL for telling me th truth.
Right now I feel like Im really falling apart.
I really have no idea which direction t go.
Maybe you wont know, but your th first guy in my whole entire 14years that I really loved so much and felt so happy t be with.
I gave up so much, wanted t skip my important trainings just t be with you.
I got into fights w my mum just because of you.
I risked things for you.
When things finally came t an end I told myself through th tears Im going t forget you, by hook or by crook.
7months has past. Through th months I thought I've grown stronger. I thought Im really over you.
But today, tonight, at 11pm, when finally JL told me everything, and I read your blog, I just couldnt contain it alrdy.
Whywhywhywhy, when I find myself finally lovin' again, you just have t come in again?
You never knew how much I loved you eh?
You never knew how much you hurt me eh?
You let me go, you made th choice, not me, but why am I th one who's crying over all these shit?
Im going t stand up tall and upright again, and this time round your not going t break me down, ever again.

I pray, I hope, and again I'll say that I can live my life without you.

Nothing could ever measure what you're worth.

2009-08-03T22:13:00.001+08:00

I shrugged and just said, nothing, Im fine. But when you turned away all th tears just flowed.
Like a rose, tremble on th ground. You told th fall, and thought of me, Above all.
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Hello peeeeeeeeeepoooo :D You realise I dont really blog much recently because my life's abit topsy-turvy right now, so yeaaaaa. Mostly I rant out on th posts, or I just blog about interesting ( WITH A BIG ") things that happened or whatsoever. Whatever.

Ok, so today I left home without my shoebag. How stupid. I was walking towards th station while messaging, when I asked myself : Eh? How come today Monday my hands so free one. Then I realised that I had forgottened my shoebag, and th silliest thing is that before leaving house I kept staring at my shoebag and telling myself: Today must bring uh today must bring uh !
-__________-"
Ok, stupid me.

Didnt U-turn back because I was afraid I might be late t meet that Duck, so just went straight, and guess what. SHE WAS LATE >: ( Went t get my caffine and off t school ~
Boring day ~ Was messaging in class, drifting in and out of my own day-dreams. Sometimes high, sometimes irritated. Argh. Honestly right, you dog or man. First I try t be nice t you, you fucked up. Afterwards you 'nice' t me, then I attitude you, so my fault uh?
Suck cock la some people -_- Zzz.

Aft school, decided t pon CCM, together with Valerie Tan :P She's like my ponning partner alrdy, we ponned some dumb Council ( :X ) thang tgt alrdy. Played volleyball with her and ShiMin and YanLin. Then V left for home t get her things and a pair of running shoes for me ( :P YAY ) while I fell into hysterical laughters thanks t Seniors :) They were like, giving names t each other th old way, like XinYu was called: Yu Er. So I was called Shi Zi (Lion) because my chinese name was ShiMin. Kinda funny yanoe, when there's YanZi, Yu Er, Er Zi, Wen Zi, Lan Zi. AHHH, seniors made my day :D
Training started, did my runs with C'div 09 cause seniors went first :) Happyhappy!
Normal drills and stuff, medicine ball w YanZi ^O^
Didnt play game cause right, MsG so good uh, she say, GD, Charmaine, eh nononono, then pass t YanZi. AHHHHH, bloody MC -__-
YanZi very cute, she very slow one ^O^

Aft trg bused t Lot1 w some teammates, complaining that my knee veh pain, Kim still keep suanning me :(
Went t Pasar Malam for our mission ^O^ Were laughing like idiots there -_-
Then trained back, Daddy came t pick me up and had dinner at 888Plaza. Dammit. I ate pork intestines and I didnt know :(((((((((((((

Aish, tomorrow's Mama's birthday, and Idk if she got her phone back, so I guess I'll just wish her here first ^o^

MOMSEY!

HAPPYBIRTHDAY! :D

(L) You will always be that special friend in my heart :)

I really have no idea how am I going t face you now.

Seeing you reminds me of my anguish and agony that I'd gone through for nothing.

I try t forgive, and I hope I will forget.

Lovin' you was a mistake, and I wont make that mistake again.

You know I can never stop thinking about you.

2009-08-02T00:10:00.004+08:00

Someone taught me a very important lesson today. Life is like a rainy day.
Before th rain, there's th sun. When it starts t rain it starts with a drizzle, and then snowballs into a heavy rain. There's lightning and thunder, rain pouring down onto th world. Then th rain subsides and stops eventually. After th rain there comes th rainbow and if you never give up looking you will find a pot of gold at th end of th rainbow.
Life isnt always smooth sailing. Ups and downs, you can never fanthom what's gonna happen next. Fate isnt very much controlled by us, but we can choose th life that we want. One shot in life, grab it. One chance, dont waste it. True that life isnt fair. True that life always seems negative. Things never go smoothly all th time, life isnt a bed of roses.

Someone once told me that " your just looking at th negative side of life. Why not try changing perspectives and look at th positive side of life? " True, things are always against us, but change lanes, because we get t choose th life we want.

Lastly, t this friend, gambateh, you've taught me something about life, and I know you can pull through this period. CharmaineTeh will always be there for you ;)
1,2,3 FIGHTING!
*Name's not mentioned for privacy's sake peepo (:
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Went t Suntec City tday for lunch. Siao right. Travel about 35minutes for lunch. But actually we wanted t go for our High-Tea and lunch there, but we couldnt find th restaurant, so settled for Kennys Roger. So long never go eat alrdy, kinda nostalgic :) Afterwards trained down t Lot1 ( ANOTHER 50mins D:< ) t shop for 1hour ( -_- ) because there was church. Stopped at CottonOn, saw th highwaist skirt and was so attracted t it. Pestered my mum t get it for me, but she didnt like it ( funny, is she wear or I wear one! ) so, fine! Im gotta save up for it. 30$, jiayou Charmaine! Alternative is get my dad t buy :D Speaking of my dad, he's coming back tmr :D I really hope he's back safe and not sick ( Yanoe HongKong got H3N2 alrdy yanoe! ) and of course with my HongKong apparels and maybe th Hello Kitty Touch Phone :D Or else gotta ask him t get another phone for me :)
Went t Aries and got a damn cute rubberband, got shoe on it one yanoe! Monday I wear t school, go see :D Then went down t basement t get sausages and my frozen yogurt (Y)(Y) Then trained down t church.

I made up a rhyme and didnt notice it until JiongLin told me :D And I LIKE th rhyme *Btlook.
I want a balloon, yanoe those kind sell t flower stall one :(

I really dont know how Im gonna forgive you.

Maybe one day God will give me th strength and courage t.

Its hard t stay angry, but for th time being, I really dont know what t do.

No more second times.

2009-07-31T22:31:00.001+08:00

Have you ever loved someone, you would literally give it all for, not th expression, but literally give it all for. And then when your hopes turned into pain, and he changes and stabs you. How would YOU feel? How would you like it if th blame was put on you when you are trying t do your best t change for th person? How would you want t be left in th dark and only told th truth at least 6months later?

One day you're going t be my memory that Im gonna forget. You dug out th pain again and gave it a new layer of hurt. Now you expect me t be normal again and cover up all my pain and pretend nothing had happened?

School, Physics proj more or less ok but handing in on Monday (Cfm alot of peeps also hand in Monday -_-), classes and all, after school slackslack around w Teammates. Note: Keely and Joice gangbanged me at 203's backdoor :( Anyway, grabbed a bite w Teammates and Jessica Nuer. Went back t MP4 t have th study session. Studystudy until 2.30 like that then started w trg. Okok, can tahan. But dammit I am still on my new 2weeks MC ( WHICH I FRIGGIN LOST D:< ) so, didnt really get t play much :( Anyway aft trg went 7-11 w ShiMin, Jessica and WaiYee. Heh, nuer waited for me aft her trg aye! Kisskiss her la :D I think she waited w WaiYee? Hahhaah, thanks :D Then bought food and asked brother t come down too. Sent nuer t Food Culture t find Keely, then trained back w Brother :}

Im gna be ok, Im gna be alright. Nothing can daunt me, no one, not even you. Im not that kind of 'suibian' person, dont expect me t be alright after being cheated and lied to.

Life is like clay.

2009-07-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

Today I fell twice, fell down hard. But strong hands of goodfs lifted me up, someone pulled me up and told me that I cant change for someone, but that someone broke me down again. I cant believe I was just so so so stupid.
If sorrys could heal everything, then t hell with th politics and laws.
Losing a friend was never easy. But losing a good friend is never something I wanted. I tried and tried, but you kept pushing me down, making me feel inferior, making me feel fucking small infront of Ms Ow and th class. Yea, Im a useless rep who makes her assistant do every single thing. But before you open your mouth there are people who can justify that th work they hand in t you is refused and pushed t me.
Yes I admit, people do make mistakes. But they(stupid people) will never know unless they are told. But you didnt tell me, how am I supp t know? Many live their days in and out, how would they know where they've gone wrong?

B, I dont hate you. I just (idk what word t use here) for all that you've done. I'll just wish I never have t see you. You were right. October 2008 should have never occurred at all, and I shouldnt have ever called you on that very day.

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For a moment I sat there stunned, my mind unable t process what you have writtened. I tried t wake up, but no it wasnt a dream. I was stupid. Stupid enough t have put th blame on me. And now you came t tell me th truth. How do you expect me t react? Normal? Aft th misery and th deepest and darkest depth I had sunk into, I am told that it wasnt my fault, th truth surfaced. What's th meaning of this? Aft th breakup I tried convincing myself that you were still a good guy, it was all my fault. I kept reapproaching myself, but it turned out t all be a lie. Whywhywhywhywhy. Now I have no idea how am I ever gonna face you, talk t you, or worse, even see your friggin' face. Thanks alot, that's all I can say.

If th world stops spinning, will I still remain as a part of your memory?

2009-07-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

I am feeling very guilty right now. For 2 days I hadnt been reading th Bible because I was too tired. AHHH!
Recently I feel my brain degenerating. Its either I cannot remember simple things, or I just cannot understand or do simple things. Alot of warning bells tell me that its due t th lack of sleep. But how t sleep when I have work piling up on me. Im starting t regret many of my actions in th past - slacking and lazying around. Goodness, God I need Your help :( ! In fact I find myself glued t th laptop. Maybe I should just smash it or something, ok fine not smash, but maybe lock it up, and pinch myself if I ever think of it. Wow.

Appointment with Doc Ben today. And I was late, just because I was nice enough t stay back t help out with th Art and D&T thing. Daddy picked me up and sent me. Doc said that my toe is totally ok, just that I need t be really careful, and he gave me another MC, this time round stating that for th next 2 weeks, Im only supposed t go for 2 trainings per week :( Just t build up my stamina again without affecting my health or whatsoever. And he gave me th MC cause I stupidly asked him whether Im fit for light activities or normal trainings >: ( AHHHHHH, stupid me.

Recently I've been getting kinda pissed off at a type of people. When they are appointed something or someone that they do not like or dont want t be by you, they blame you. In your face, in front of other people, infront of your friends, infront of your teachers. And then th next thing you know they start t snatch all your work, your limelight, your responsibilities, and then at th same time, complain in front of your face t th whole world that you made them do this and that, and its all your fault that they are what they are today. Wait, hello, first you complain this 'you' make you an authority you dislike, then later you snatch and DIEDIE want t do th work, and then while your doing th work you DIEDIE insist that you do, you actually blame 'you' ?! Wait, what does this make sense?!
On top of these, this type of people have another characteristic that I absoulutely dislike. Unappreciative. That's th basic courtesey(?) and respect and manners that you can have for anyone, for your pet, for your parrent, for your friends, for anything. When someone helps you with something by going th extra mile, for example: Reminding you t bring something. , you dont blame th person so loudly for th quiet class t hear: WAPIANG EH YOU LA, ALL BECAUSE OF YOUR BLOODY REMINDER I TODAY ALMOST LATE.
Whatsfuck. Nabey, you dont want my help right, th next time, dont even find me. Dont even come begging t me. Mind your attitude, my patience has limits. Im not your dog, boy. Watch it.

A fragile soul caught in th hands of fate.

2009-07-27T22:20:00.001+08:00

I've gotten my Bible, my very own Bible. Ohmy, you have no idea how happy I was :D And its sosososo cute la :D (Y)(Y)

School was okhayyyyyyy. Again, me and YaMei were LATE for assembly. Whats fuck.
Ok, seriously Im really very pissed off right now. Cause right, TH BLOODY SIGN IN MACHINES ARE SO FUGGLING SLOW. And then, he literally SCREAMED at me t display my name tag for th councillors, and then SCREAMED at me t see him aft school cause I didnt have it, which obviously I didnt go see, like who's such an idiot t go see someone who has a memory failure and only in 1 out of 10 chances will remember asking you t see him, and then when you go see him he's gonna SCREAM at you t get lost, that's if your lucky. But if your unlucky your gonna have t spend like, 1h + searching th whole damn school for that bloody Tiger -_-

But anyway that's besides th point. Th point is that, I did remember t bring my tie and stuffs :D So, its a thumbs up for Charmaine :D (Y) Ok lame, but anyway, school was okhayyyyy. I suffered during Maths cause firstly, I didnt have th damn worksheet, secondly, I didnt understand a shit. Well, FINE :( I stupid la.
Then blahblahblah, school's over, went t eatttttttttt ~

CCM's starting t become fun, because last week I have ShiHui with me, this week I got WeiCheng ~~Ahgong~~ :D. I remember last week's lesson as something really shocking t me, because I never had a CCM lesson so fun at all :D Before you get me all wrong, th fun came from ShiHui, Qin Yao and MuiHao okhay. MH was like, telling me what : Your Punneh very Panjang or something. So, Shaun, I know what's th meaning of Punneh alrdy okhay -_- Those craps, then ShiHui bully MH cause he bullied her first (OO?)
But this week, I sat w WC, so litterally it was laugh lesson :D I was laughing my way through th whole lesson, even choking on his water and making my whole face wet! How embarrassing manxzc ;( But still, disiao poor WC and laughed at Bird when he go write Sucker on th board as an answer.
Left early for 'training' (Fine it was a lie t escape, and got caught by Mrs Toh who has a BO, acc t Joice -_-).

Trg was all PT, since Monday is PT day. Very tiring, didnt manage t use th Gym cause firstly, Dragonboaters were using, and secondly there was a shortage of equipments :( AHHHHHH, so we did stairs and such, shivering because it was damn cold I tell you. Wind blow until numbnumb one -_-
Blahblahblah, damn tired. Sprained my wrist and finger, my toe is hurting :( Holy shit, Im really afraid that th joint becomes worse, by then I need injection AND operation. -'-
Aft trg bused t Lot1, veh noisy and loud in bus :D Homed. Tired.

Still need study for Mr.H's History test -_- Nehmind, I got answer key, :D Kimbly! :D

SEE NO EMOEMO POST LIAO RIGHT :P (or sadsad crap right) :Dbig>
Fuck la, tmr still need see that blodoy Tiger's face by 7.15am, cfm plus chopchopchop will kenna scream at. Screamscreamscream, go be girl la -_-

Ahhhhhhhhh, how ? :(

Caught in your love spell.

2009-07-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

In life, there will be three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love. And amist th 3 of them th greatest will always be love.

J♥

Even th strong falls.

2009-07-24T21:24:00.001+08:00

These two days and th (idk how many previous) previous week, I've been spending time playing Volleyball, or slamming balls into walls, or spiking and screaming and just having a great time with Jessica Nuer and WeiCheng ~~Ahgong~~ as we play volleyball. I have alot of things on my chest that I would very much love t get off. Stress, troubles, stress, troubles, unhappiness. Fuck man. I dont like.

There was a tea appreciation yesterday for CCAs that bring contribution t BPGHS. Pon-ed Chinese remedia just because WeiCheng ~~Ahgong~~ ask me whether want play Volleyball. So of course say yes la :D Dont tell James Korkor hor, he cfm kill me for ponning Ms Tang's lesson -_- Then me and Nuer kept bullying him :D Then another junior came, then Nuer stillc ontinue bullying :D My one is excusable la :D

Had some appreciation thing for netball in th CCA video. Mainly it was Jasmine Captain who was speaking. Th peektures were all from Bdiv '08. Ahhhh ~ Then headed down t canteen for buffet. Was among th last t get food cause th dumb and bad and ungentleman basketballers all cut our queue! I LOOKING AT THEM STILL CUT :( AHHH~ Anyway, note: Mr Tay's shooting sucks I tell you. :P

Eat and stay back playplay awhile, then watched th Speech Day UG Parade. :D

Today was kinda slackslack. PE played against th Sec4s. Total ownage in captain ball la :( Nisa lo, Even classmates say she veh good (Y)(Y). Then English class had some pronounciation thing, teacher say I good v^^ . Through out class 'bullying' Weicheng :P So as th previous lessons :) Im starting t enjoy English lessons if we get t go back t our group ^o^ Veh fun disiaoing and laughing :D Played Volleyball during recess and blahblahblah. After school went off with Jean, WeiCheng pangseh us last minute -_-

Anyway I got a new crush uh :D Fernando Torres ^o^ Ohmytian uh, hothothot dontcha think ? :D

Aish, Im down with flu. That kind your airway is blocked, while your nose is literally CLEAR. WTF -'- Argh. im really pissed off. I've got Physics proj t finish, which I catch no balls of what Im supp t do, so Im just gonna do th dumb book, period. I need t understand th bloody Maths and Chem and Physics subj, not to forget study History. There's a test on Wednesday! Ahmyfarkkkkkkk, this is not fair. Plus, I took th wrong pages for Maths worksheet, now how Im gonna chiong uh ?! HAND IN ON MONDAY LEY >: ( tmdtmdtmd.

I dont think I'll be turning up for th NDP thang tmr. So sorry Joice! Ahhh, I think tomorrow I will be sleeping in, then later pigging out on th Cinderella video she lent me, just that I need t find food ! And I've found myself addicted t Magnolia Milk (?!) That one blueblue one with a cow there. (Y)(Y) Eeeek, I think I betta end thish postsh. Before I start thuu go shooo high and makeh thish postsh a boringeh oneh. -_-

I've lost alotalot of things.

I can let go. I know I can.
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What is it like t fall for someone whom your not supp t love?

That's th problem, when you want something that's not yours.

How are you going t fall when you are alrdy at th bottom?

2009-07-22T20:39:00.003+08:00

Im lonely, and tired, and Im wishing you were here.
I wished that I was there, where I loved t be.
Man cant live forever, neither can I.
Deep down inside me I cant bear t leave if I have t.
I know Im thinking way too much but what if I leave tomorrow?

A crow in th sky can just suddenly drop down onto th middle of th road, gasping for breath.
In th risk of getting rolled over and over by on coming vehicles, its wing in a pool of blood.
But no one, or nobody ever went t help it.
There it layed, until it breathed its last and left this place.

Anything can happen in life.
Th unexpected happens, th unwanted is inevitable.
I slipped on th bloody line on th Netball court and slammed/crashed with full impact onto my right knee, immobilising me for minutes.
I was there on th floor, grimacing in pain and wincing as hot pain seared through my leg.
No words could describe how much in pain I was.

Anything can happen in life, th next moment, next day, next minute, next second.
What if I die th next second?

When all hope turns into pain, and th wrong is t be made right.
Someone told me t stay strong, but can I pull through?

What happens when Karma turns around and bites you.

2009-07-20T22:47:00.011+08:00

Fave peektures (One of th class photos we took, got unglams okhay! I esp like th second and third and fourth photo ^o^ I seem so light in th second photo :D)

Firstly, I would like t say that Im really very proud of 206.
Yes, I know these 3days with me as your cheerleader is really horrible eh (*Wink, I know la.). With me screaming and all that at you, it isnt really pleasant. You guys having t sacrifise your lunch break and computer games time (*Glares at YongJie) isnt something your do all th time. But Im still glad you guys did it (Althought I know is me and Joice force your one lo :P). Thanks a whole bunch. I know most of you guys arent enthu about it, but at least today during th competition you guys put your best into it. And lastly, thankyou for making this competition an enjoyable one :D
06! All th way! Woohoo, 2nd round baby, 2nd round!

Secondly, I would like t thank Joice, WeiCheng, TJ and Leonard.
Thankyou Joice for coming up with th cheers, I know it took you quite some time during th holiday, considering that you went overseas for about 1 week plus, and our training schedule and homeworks, but still you came up with th cheers. Sorry if I seemed impatient with you, :}
Thanks a bunch Joice, there's many things you sacrifised for th class. Thankyou, without you, we wont be able t make into th next round :}
And Thankyou t those three guys too, for supporting me while I was up on th little pyramid :D Honestly, I have no idea how I would have done it without you guys :} If it were 3 other guys, like KwanHao and co, I dont think I would feel kinda secure, like I can fall anytime. Thanks for assuring me that you guys wnt let me fall, when finally my enthusiasm and courage was shakened. Thanks for saying: OK , aft I so hyperly (-_-) jumped up and down saying I wanna be on top of th pyramid, and supporting my kinda ~~light~~ (!!!) Heavy frame. ( But Im quite light right ! :P) And lastly, thanks for accepting th fact that your had t be th pompom guys, but you guys did a really good job. Even peeps from other classes told me that you guys were fantastic :D Thanks once again :}

And lastly, 206, I cannot really post th links into our class blog, because I cant sign in >:
So here's th link :} Enjoy peeps ! :D
Photos
Ps, th album can be viewed by Non-Facebook members too :} Andandand, Im super sorry, but I cant seem t find th links for th 2 videos, so I guess its inaccessible t Non-members !
--

Th more time Im spending with you, th more I find myself feeling lost in those eyes.

Honestly Im sick of living life this way.
Why are you backstabbing me t your sister?
Im your daughter yanoe!
And just because she doesnt dare or want t defy you she takes in all your untruths about me and sees me as someone who is FOREVER wrong.
So now she's picturing me as th big bad guy, why?
Because she listens t you, she never listens t my side of th story.
Thanks alot woman.

Happy girl.

2009-07-19T18:49:00.004+08:00

Edited!

Hiiiii-lo-peeeee-pooo. Let me brag abit okhay, cause Charmaine is right now, one HAPPY girl.

Omfg, DistinctionsDistinctionsDistinctions!

Holy, I got Distinctions for Piano Grade 7! Meaning, 87/100.
Goodness, and I wasnt even well prepared!
Thankyou God! ^o^
Daddy's cooking today. Ohmy. I worry for my stomach :( He just used th prawn's head t make th stew of th soup (Meaning he boiled th heads in water t add flavour. OMFG.) Gosh.
And tomorrow's Cheering Comp, fuck. I worry for my throat now.

Lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANCHAN MEIMEI :D

Yanoe I luv ya alot aye :P So must be happyhappyhappy, we shall camwhore alot kk :D
And I know you arent reading my blog cos you cant use th com, so I shall say here.
SHIT, tmr you cfm come ask me for presents one -_-

Toodles. Today's Harry Potter's a MUST watch. Harry Potter and th Goblet of Fire ley! ^o^ They always show Prisoner of Askaban and Soccerer Stone -_- Boring la. Can memorise th script alrdy -o- (Ok, not literally, but as a figure of speech, so dont come asking me t memorise it out for you ._.)

PS, I have 2tickets t th NDP show -_- who on earth wants t go with me ?! Planning t go back aft midnight. Gosh, my dad rocks. So many contacts. First th F1 Drift show. Now NDP. Who knows next might be F1 :D ! YAY ^O^

whywhywhy :(
I dont like it when my heart beats so fast when we speak t each other :(

Tired.

2009-07-18T00:14:00.008+08:00

Yes, Im back, EDITED my previous post, and like what I said, I'll be posting.
Ok lets see. I hadnt been having a proper post for about like, em, a week or so ? Yea. So just a short recap of what happened in my ~~pathetic much~~ week (th only things i remember thou).
1. Basketball with LinQi, YingXiang, WeiLi, Leonard, JunDa, WeiCheng and TeckJin yesterday.

-_-" Only 1 thing.

School yesterday was ~~kinda below~~ average. Me and YaMei were late, AGAIN. WTF, its not that I care, its just that BECAUSE OF TH FUCKING SIGN IN MACHINE I HAVE T SEE THAT STUPID DM ON MONDAY BEFORE 7.15AM AGAIN. @.@ Leonard ErZi was late too, and mind you, we came on time okhay :( We were just "..late for assembly.." as what DM puts it.
Stayed back for th bloody Cheering Comp. And once again, 206 did it. Fucking noisy, dont wanna co-operate. Fine, its their problem, but why cant they just leave th classroom and let me go: tyvm?
Anyway, school's sucky, doubt I will be posting about it.
Left home at 3+ and trained down t meet Sister and th rest. Bought BBT, YingXiang finally camed, walked t Limbang park ( my yuan wang lu :( ) and were late half an hour cause we kinda lost our way. Made Leonard, TeckJin and WeiCheng wait for us :P Then WeiLi and JunDa came.
Played games barefooted, MY BLISTERS ARE LIKE, TH SIZE OF MY PALM OKHAY. No kidding. Took videos (posted on FB) and pictures. JunDa went off first. Slacked abit until around 7+ or 8, limped back t Lot1 with Leonard, LinQi and YingXiang. Talktalk, and ErZi taught me not t be afraid of waters ^o^ And he also told me, both my erzi are lifesavers ley! :P So I dont need t worry liao. ^^V
Dinner at LongJohn first. Crapcrap. JunDa came back. Slack around till 9+, went t dapao my dinner. Leonard went off first, then LinQi and YingXiang went off. Left me and JunDa, goodgood erzi pei me go CCK park eat :D Talktalk, laughlaugh, until my dad call me up, say my curfew 1030 >( WTF 1030?! SO BLOODY EARLY?! x.x So packup, went off >(
Homed at close t 11pm.

Awww, CCA's resuming and my 3week MC not up yet :)

Undeniable.

2009-07-15T21:56:00.008+08:00

Edited!
Thanks Keely, Maria, Kim, Shafa and Shimin for today.
Especially Keely, who stood by me and ran after th balls that flew crazily after being slammed.
Yesh, I'll be strong, pull through, and smile, not cry.

I can only hope, I can only pray.
Its true that I miss you, but soon its gonna be a fact that I can live without you.
--

If you have one more shot in life, what would you do?
I would relive those moments in life, and revive all those dead memories.
I wont look back at th laughters, but I will hold on t th times.

If I had one last shot in life, I would tell you every single thing I had wanted t but held back.

Your light will shine always.

2009-07-13T16:50:00.006+08:00

Edited!

" One day th night, will pass away. Your light will shine always. And everything will be fine, for all eternity. Light th way in this heart of mine, take away th darkness. Your Word is like a lamp unto my feet. I am changed because of You, a miracle is born within my soul. You are th light of th world."
I am honestly very tired of livin' my life th way it is right now. I suddenly feel like quitting school again. I suddenly feel like going back t smoking, although I know that many people will kill me for that. (You know when you do, you feel really high, like theres no worries and troubles in your world anymore.) But right now I feel so trapped and so stuck, I really dont know what t do. I want t cry, but I dont know what am I crying for.
Can someone tell me, what t do, when your whole world seems t just crash down on you?
I dont really feel like going through all th struggles and getting back on my feet again.
--

I honestly lovelovelove with a cherry on top ( -_- ) that photo on top. It sent me and Jean screaming in th handicap toilet at Republic Poly, and teammates were all outside 'hounding' on th door at us -_- ( FINE I SOUND SO BIMBOTIC BUT ITS ALL THANKS T MY INFACTUATION ON THAT HELLOKITTY PHONE OKHAY! )

Anyway, Joice's birthday bash at Water Park was very cold, cause there was ice water poured on everyone, BY ME :D, and I wasnt poured on cause I was th evil bunny who did that.

Light The Way was awesome. Why? 'Cause I was there mah. ( Ok stupid. ) Nah, because God's presence was there :D And it was seriously awesome, met Noah after th service, he's so lame, say want t meet me but then say 'Hi' liao then we go off on our own ways -_- And that noob, got lost, and ended up around 786C (?! I live at F yanoe.) And I was suanning him telling him that I was so comfy eating my Old Chang Kee curry puffs and watching TeeeeVeeeee :D

Performance at RP was ~~bloody~~ kinda boring. Fell asleep on Keely (BOYF!)'s shoulder and Kim fell on mine. Dinner afterwards and me and teammates literally siao-ed our way back t CWP ^o^ (Note: Im not th noisest okhay, but acc t some alumni, we were really veh 'siao ah' -_-) And did I say I actually paisehed myself cause of a butterfly ?! Argh. Dinner and then slacked abit with teammates.
Happy day. No worries, very high. I like :D
And th best part was t see you :D LMAO.

Peektures from Concert Performance: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2055625&l=51fcc6e272&id=706962529

Peektures from Joice's birthday bash: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88608&id=706962529&l=cf1b56d45a
(Ps, those without their Facebook acc can view it too, if I not wrong. Its a public link yaw!)

I must seriously start studying NOW, no more procrastinations, no more delaying, no more slacking. True, I've been really frustrated w shits and such, but I wont let that affect me anymore. Im gonna stand by God through thick and thin and let him be my source of strength. And Im gonna be strong, like what I said I will always be. And I forgot what I wanted t write, cause Im like, trying t convey messages t Brother and NiaoJiaoNuer -_-

When will I see you again.

When you caught me, I was falling.

2009-07-11T16:22:00.002+08:00

Sudden urge t go shopping, anyone?
Busy these few days, very distracted, chionging all my unfinished homework, thanks KeelyOh for teaching me part of Maths.
Shall update more tomorrow.

PS: I want this chio phone. Yes, I know its HelloKitty and seems bimbotic. But who cares, I like it. Daddy's going HongKong, gonna ask him find it for me. :D Or some other chio touch phone that he can find there, since HongKong is shopping haven, though sometimes I dont really trust his shopping taste -_-
--

Imagine me without you.

Stuck in this fuckin' position.

2009-07-08T22:44:00.004+08:00

So I made my lips move up, imagining that I looked like one of those scary, sad clowns who had a smile painted on his face along with a teardrop.
and I stupidly fell in love with you.
(But what I really wanted t do was t hide away and cry.)

Im gonna make up my mind, Im gonna do something about this.
Because stayin' on like this is fucking torturing.
Everyday fucking waitin' for something t happen,
for us t talk like normal again.
Shit man, its not gonna happen, my gut tells me that.
Im gonna let go, and never turn back again.

Nono, I will learn ~~not~~ t cry, because crying is only for th weak.
And I know, you're not worth it, not anymore.

You left me really really confused.

2009-07-06T21:45:00.003+08:00

My day kinda rocked at first, till something/someone/somewhere happened and my mood changed 180 degrees.
Review(Novena), K's house(BukitPanjang), Physio(Novena), Home(Admiralty).
I feel really trapped inside me . Now that your gone, I dont know who t turn t anymore. I thought you weren't a liar, but apparently I was wrong, yes, a stupid fool indeed. 从前有一个人爱你很久.

Formula Drift Pro-Am Series 2009

2009-07-05T20:48:00.007+08:00

Yay day for me today. Went for chuch, then headed down t Changi Exhibition Centre for Formula Drift Pro-Am Series 2009. In case you are clueless, its about car racing and stuffs, so being a lover of fast and furious things, of course I damn happy la ;D
Ok, so we reached Changi area, but spent 15mins searching for th place, cause apparently we were 'lost' and ended up at some checkpoint area -____-

We finally reached, took pictures, alot of hot, I mean, seriously hot cars ( like hot pink? :D ). And alot of hot guys also -_-

I like I like! :D Plus, th driver is Singaporean neh :D

Eh eh, pinkpink, I like! :D

Ok, so I was th only girl of my age group there, like, HELLO? Th rest were all JC/ITE/Poly/working guys/girls !
Ok, back t th topic. So th racing started, beside me were some ITE guys who were 'CHEEBYE' ing, and my dad actually thought I might feel uncomfy so he offered t change places w me. LOL.
Anyway, I shook hands w some world-popular free stunts motor driver (I dont know him.). He has red sunburnt face and is damn cute w it. HOHOHO. Imagine, shaking hands w a guy w a face like a tomato ! :D

Watched th race, then it rained, hard. Dampened things, went into shelter, everybody suddenly started smoking O.O

Finished watching th race, Singapore lan eh, esp James Tang :) Drift also drift like idk what -_-" Th winner was Thankyou jon, well at least that was what it sounded like O.O

Afterwards, headed down t Changi Village for ZiCha :D (Rice and dishes), its nice yo :) Th fish curry, Lemon chicken wings and Spinach w mushrooms. Gosh, how long was it ago that I actually ate vegetables O.O 3 weeks, at least.

More photos at: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2008922&l=1f49f00cab&id=706962529

Anyway, tomorrow's Physio day :( I realised that Im scared of doctors that gotta do w my sports injury :( I seriously hope that there wont be any like, 'krackkkkkkkk krackkkkkkk' / 'SCREAMMMMMM!' / 'Relaxxxxxxxxxx' . Im sure you get what I mean eh ? :(
Then heading down t Keely's house for stuffs :)

I wished I never seened those things, I wished I never opened that message.
For all I know, it changed my mood, 180degrees.
I wished I never told you at all.
For all I know, it changed everything.
Why did you lie, why did you have t pretend.
And then dump her there with nothing but broken hopes and dreams, and a shattered being.

More than words.

2009-07-01T18:54:00.005+08:00

如果我变成回忆, will you forget me?

Ok, I shall say, that today, Teammates made my day, ^o^ Our game of crocodile during recess made me really hyper and forget manymany troubles, (Because my day didnt really start out well). And then it ended off with them giving me a team present, which is a sketch book with all me/our photos in it, with messages at th side. I was so touched, I cried manxzxz, and I was right outside 203/4. Gosh, hugged them, Im really glad :D Thanks a bunch guys. You guys really are th best :)

--
Sometimes when you feel like everyone has abandoned you, and you think that you've searched so hard. But there are times you are wrong, its not that you hadnt searched hard enough, its just that th bestest friends you could have are just right beside you, and you didnt even notice it.

I remember in Secondary1 we were still a bunch of mere strangers, playing together in a sport. We didnt really know each other well and just hung out w those from our classes or those that we knew. We werent close, just mere 'Hi and Bye' friends. I thought that we would stay like that. But I was wrong aye!

Slowly I got t know all of you guys, and through all the tears and trainings we had together I was greatly moved by our strong determination and th will t be th best. Then I opened up, and bit by bit realised that I've found what I've been looking for.

Though we had been bitching 'bout each other behind each other's backs (wink*) but I guess its that which makes us closer aye!
Then our new coach came in. Trainings became even more tough. We persevered together, cried together, sweat together, endured together, laughed together. Tears and laughters mixed together, bring out an undescribable joy in me whenever training days arrived.

I was greatly moved by you guys, both on and off court. You have showed me th true meaning of friends, be it on or off court. You guys encouraged me, teased me, joked with me, adviced me, cared for me, loved me, and lastly, you guys were always with me.

Now I know, th search is over. Cause I found you :)

Yay, colourful post .

2009-06-29T18:19:00.006+08:00

I'll be waiting for you .. - Starlight Tears, BOF

Charmaine is really very bored now.
Seriously man, I was damn cranky in th morning. Crocodile during recess, Pepper Lunch and MOF in the afternoon with Keely and Joice. Thanks IvanKor & HuiShan(SHENSHEN) for th belated birthday wishes, Keely for th shirt, ChaoHong for th cute cute card (L), Jaspreet, QiEn,Shanice and YunNing for th BOF note book :D

I know Im supposed t be doing my EW and all that shit now, but Im really not in th mood. There's some shiet bothering me, and its very disturbing t think back on it. Aiyah, I dont even know why I am thinking about it still la .

1) I dont understand why some people are just so hardup t get in th middle attraction, wanting always t stand in th middle of a group, sit in th middle of a group, everything also need t be middle one -_-

2) I dont understand why some people like t boast, Friends forever, but go back on their word after awhile.

Those are just somethings I noticed as I move t th next part of my life. I know no one is perfect, so I just cant expect people t not be like that, but its still very disturbing. Its especially hurting, when you finally come out of your stupidity and dumbness and realise that your the victim.

Life has taught me many lessons. I fell, and got up again, each time feeling broken and weary. Seeing you being th one who build me up t who I am, but then tearing me down, I dont know what's going on. Why did you become like that.
I told myself not t hate you, but seeing you thinking that you're so high and mighty, always wanting t be th most 'popular' kid, shoving people in your way out of th way, stepping on th weak and feeding on th misery you caused.
You've become someone I dont know already, a monster. Seeing you brings a dread in my heart, I dont even wanna look at you, or acknowledge your presence.

'Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.-- Anonymous'
Thankyou teammates, for picking me up when I fall, for pulling me back on my feet, and for being th sunshine of life.

2009-06-27T12:01:00.004+08:00

Ok, I know I owe this post for a veryvery (Not really but I better exaggerate it.) long time. And M has been 'threatening' me :( So I think I better quickquickquickquick.

18June09

Wokeup, prepare and went down t YanFang's block t meet them. Met Shannon on th way !! :D
Yay I missed her so so so much :(
But anyway, me and Yanfang were waiting for our Miss Late Queen who came 20minutes late, and me and Y were complaining hungry.
So headed down t Mac for breakfast, then went t cut my hair :(
Yishun next, went t NorthPoint(?) cause Y needed t find her clique (and Ex boyf. That fucktard.)
Went Starbucks, ate some strawberry yoghurt. Gosh, I didnt know need mix, then I eat th yoghurt and was like, going t puke it out cause its damn sour. But th sour and sweet concoction is nice :D
Ok, things happened, me and M damn pissed off, called that bastard up and asked him come down find Y, if not ________. (Dont worry its nothing bad. :D)
TMD, then later send msg say: Tell her fuck off la, dont know what's her fucking problem.
So in th end, that bastard was made t call Y up and appologise in person t me and M, hoho, shiok eh, step duaki then appologise like small boyboy. (Y)

Skipskipskip many parts.

Bought cake and went t block. Bought our stuffs and celebrate at voiddeck (-_-)
Birthday bashed our girl and ate and blahblahblah (rather not mention.)

Next trained down t FarEast, Y sent us there then she left :(
So me and M went t look for my dress :D
Didnt get anything, cause decided that th white Kimono dress dont really look nice alrdy.
Sit down and eat my dingdangtang :D
Chitchat, and gossip (Aw, girlfs what.)

Then Shannon msged say she at Plaza Sing, say if can she come down meet us.
So me and M went down t meet her, trained t Bugis, shopshop for my tanktop :D
I was so broke aye ! :(
Then went t BurgerKing t eateat chatchat, left at IDK what early birdie time cause I needed t go ahma house >(

Ehheh, veh lazy post th peektures here la :( So I post here ! :D (M see this cfm dulan, eh, but I post alrdy kkkk)

Clickclick!:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86195&id=706962529&l=c779c1d099

25June09

HAPPYBIRTHDAY KEELY OH
Teammate, yanoe I luv you eh?
DamnYou&DamnMe :D
Always tgt :D
Smile yea girl ! <3
Ps, your name's purposely written in PINK

26June09

Wokeup, call stupid Mio t settle laptop, in th end they say problem is th same problem that I told my dad, whatsfuck, damn, wasted 30minutes of my sleeptime, thanks uh daddy :(
Prepare and bused down t meet Brother at CWP.
Went up t see Drag me t hell timing. It was 12.05am, and not PM, hurhhhh, that kuku.
So went t Sakae eat first :D Brother damn guailan la :D
Eat alotalot, now still want eat :(
Ahaha, thankyou brother for th treat aye!

Your small boy, playing while eating.

Then waited for Duck t come for me money :) ( damn broke la pls )
She blanjar us taxi cause she feel damn bad that we gna late for movie at Jurong Point.
So cabbed down and nicenice senior ZhiYee helped us buy first :D

I rate th movie 4.5/5 stars, cause its soundeffects were good enough t scare me.
Brother and I were like, so scared la. Idk what he scared about, but for me is th soundeffects.
He keep grabbing my jacket, I keep screaming and saying : NONONONO YOU DONT KILL TH KITTY .
LMAO @.@

Then went t jalanjalan abit, bought my bag :D
Then Daddy called, say he cant have dinner w me, my mood 180degree change manxzxz, but must smilesmile.

Went t get brother's spring onion -_- damn lame la :D

Trained back at round 5+ cause brother need be home for dinner (? I think)

Grah, Im done, I want t change blogskin >(

2009-06-25T14:18:00.007+08:00

Its time t show th lovin' side of us Singaporeans.
(She has th same name as me by the way.)

F, whereva you may be, or whether your leaving this world,
you know I'll always remember you, Best friend.

*Peektures of outing w Girlfs will be posted tomorrow along w SeoulGarden w Brother tomorrow ;D
**Lastly, thanks for all th wishes guys, including Shimin, QiEn, Xin Ee, YeowBoon, JieEn, Eugene, Gabriel, Andy, Yusuf and Noob Brendon who sent me at 11.59pm at th 59th Second on 24June ;D

Looks like you've really forgotten about me.

2009-06-24T00:07:00.009+08:00

THANKYOU!

KengNing, JiongLin (HAHA YOU NOOB, sent 3minutes before 12midnight! xD), XinAn, James, Shannon, Regena, KahWei, YanFang, Mindy, Kimbly, Keely, ShiHui, Jaspreet, Lareyna, Shanice, Brendon, WeiLi, ChaoHong, Sheryl, Desmond, Shaun, JingYi, TeckJin, Daryl, YingXiang, ZheLiang, Jessica, Darren.
Maybe there will be more? Update later bah ;D

Thanks for all of you guys who stayed up till 12am t wish me Happybirthdays, for th wishes on tagboard and sms and Facebooks :} Ai Si Ni Men le ;D

Sister is coming back, in IDK how long, but Im so anticipating it!
Missed her soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much ;D

Sitting there like a dummy, waiting for your message.
Have you really forgotten me?

2009-06-22T21:08:00.003+08:00

Ohmy, suddenly, Im having butterflies about my birthday.
I suddenly want a balloon like those two on top for my birthday.
You know those kind that are not rubber, but instead, I think when you press something inside th balloon will puff up? Yea, that kind.
It gives me an impression that it will not be deflated, frail looking on th outside, but strong on th inside.

Training on Wednesday, will be sitting out, thanks t my damn leg.
I got a feeling when Keely sees my leg, she's gonna chase after me for it. All thanks t th stupid medicine, making my leg green, macam evolving into hulk -_-

I dont know how am I gonna go through Wednesday, seriously.
Alot of people anticipate eagerly for their big day t come, but I find myself asking a question : Excited or dreading eh?
I dont really wanna think about it, but its th inevitable isnt it?
Its still gonna come.
Here's th plan : Stay up on Tuesday night continue watching BOF from Episode9 (Hello, I slept at 4+am ytd watching okhay, and somemore got that Brendon over there guailaning w me :D), go for trg th next day, sit by watch teammates do their punishment rounds while I cant do it w them :(, Lunch afterwards, Home.
Sad day. I dont care.

Anyway, before I go, I realise I do this for those peeps that I didnt really make a birthday bash for, like YingXiang, unlike Kimbly, Mindy and YanFang. HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINAN SUNZI.

2009-06-19T21:49:00.004+08:00

Whatever it takes we I'll find a way

I'm the one who'll stay, When she walks away. And you know I'll be standing here still.
I'll be waiting for you, Here inside my heart. I'm the one who wants to love you more.

Yes, th cold hard truth - I cut off my fringe for bangs. Wanted t give it a try, didnt know it would turn out looking quite shitty.
Ok, outing w Girlfs was fun, even met Shannon and went out :D
Birthday bash was fun, drinking, smoking, and dirtying Yanfang's face (:
Elaborate more soon, alot of peektures t upload, veh lazy, plus camera not w me.
Anyway, I luvluv th tanktop I got, some Thailand one :D
But anyway, th worse thing has happened t me. I injured my ligament. Yes, that's th worse that can happen t me now.
At first it started off 1week ago, ignored th pain, continued my sprintings and trgs.
Then this morning at 5am, th pain was so bad it woke me up, couldnt sleep, tried standing up and collapsed, pain was so intensed I cried.
FYI, I dont cry because of pain so easily, unless its really that bad.
Anyway, nicenice Daddy sat me down and got me t soak my feet in hothot water, shiok eh :D
He came back at 11am and brought me down t th sensei :(
In whole, for th whole 1hour there, I was screaming, crying and wriggling in pain. Quite a wonder th sensei wasnt all bruised, I swear I was kicking and kind of scolding him xD
But he veh nice eh? :P

Anyway, Tomorrow is Mindy and Shanice (SunZi?) birthday le leyyyy :D
In 30more minutes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLS (L)(L)
:D Ai si ni men :D

Andandand, Thanks t those who cared about me :D Thanks for your concern, jiayou for carnival tmr, and others, thanks alot :}

Hardcore.

2009-06-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

Will be edited when I come back from training, cause this post is posted at 12.04am.

16June09, Tuesday
Today is really hardcore day for me.
Woke up at 9.30am, felt my eyes really puffy and swollen. Whatever.
Went down t CWP and studied at library from 10.15am to 4.45am.
Hardcore 1 (You see, I hardly study so much yanoe. Ok, I was studying at Cafe Galailee(?), so there was food, meaning there was motivation.)

Then went back home and prepared and went down t Woodlands Stadium and ran 37minutes, a total of 12rounds around the track.
Hardcore 2 (You see, everytime I say I want t go gym/jog also never go one.)

Daddy sent me home, went t bathe and such, then went down t Marsiling for ChickenRice (L) and then bought durian. Ate one whole box = 2durians.
Hardcore 3 (You see, I hardly eat so much durians. This time round thanks t someone keep telling me his house got alot of durians and such -_-)

Thursday is outing w Sisters, going out t celebrate all our birthdays :)
And ONGYANFANG cnt go town >: (
I want t go cut hair and then extend properly!!

Carnival on Saturday. Birthdays on 19, 20, 22, 24, 25 and such, exam on 23.
Damn, so much things.
Im mixing up all th birthdays, Mindy 'scold' me cause I say her birthday on 19 -_-
Cfm YanFang come scold me also la .

Talking about YanFang, Im planning t kidnap her manxzxz.
CANT GO TOWN! >: ( No good no good!
Gonna kidnap her!

Anyway, maybe aft outing w sisters I might not post much anymore,
anyway all post all sadsad one.
Flying back t private blog, only 2 peeps are invited.
Luv chiuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Tired. And trying t find my way back.

2009-06-15T17:06:00.006+08:00

Super long time ago picture, like, last Christmas? Was out slacking w LinQi&Co. aft CIP at some Christmas Block Party.
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Anyway, people, it says very clearly on my title alrdy. Im really Tired. ( So tired that I hvnt checked my phone for msges yet )
Anyway, yesterday was a total bore, went for church and lesson, came home alone after Daddy went for swim, Mother&Sister went out. So I was alone at home.
Ordered in Mac Delivery, took 41mins t bathe -_- Sorry uh, made someone wait for 41mins without my reply . ROFLOL.

Was chatting online w some peeps till quite late at night, ~~I feel like a complete idiot now :( Im reallyreallyreally sorry!~~ Slept like, at around 12+, dead beat, stupidly set my alarm at 7pm.

Thus, today, I woke up at 7.20am. Was woken up by Brother's message. Checked phone, and realised that Nicholas sent me one too, but it didnt wake me up -o- Anyway I hope he's ok cause he says he has piggy flu :D ROFLOL.
Chiongchiong everything, heng Daddy sent me t station. Reached 1minute late t meet Brother -o- Heng uh, could predict what he was gonna say: Smack you uh. ROFLOL. So standard -o-

Went t sch tgt. Forgot thermometer again -o- Brother more zai, he guailan th Mdm Teh there until quite jialat, then later Mr Tham came out scold him about his slippers he guailan back, good show eh ^.^ Me and Maria stand there watch show and gawk -o-

Training started, 10rounds around field. Havent even ran our 50rounds yet.
Did all th usuals. Including torture, th 6laps again. Seriously ran till I was very ' ..... ' I dont wanna say much, considering how much I screamed at those who drop ball. I know I caused some also, cause I know there were one or two passes that were out of reach -o-
Oh yes, and there was one pass that I caught, oh Im so in luvluvluv w it ~ XiaoShuang(?) threw it t me, and I thought it was out of reach, but I wanted it so much cause I didnt want t run th torturing rounds again, so I just jumped, and ohmygoshholycows, I caught it. I think if I were on th side lines, I will be gawking. Which, in turn gave me alot of motivation t jump more than I felt I could jump for highest point.

Timing drill was next, one shot not put in = 20pushups, which was later reduced t 5pushups. Coach say every shot Claire put in, = -1 round from punishment. But if miss, = +1 round. :(
So first, it went from 45 to 46, 46 to 47, 47 to 46, 46 to 47, and so on, until it became only 42 ;D

Next was court game, for th first time in my whole life I was asked t play WA. Ok, I was so friggin' shock, you should have seen my saibin -_- . I mean, HELLO ?! I cant even control my passes, ask me t play attack ?! Woah, but I must really thank my WD - ShiMin, she was like, coaching me all th way Since coach dao me for my pathetic passes and bad timings and bad drives. -_-
Sure, I made countless of mistakes, such as wrong timing and such ( And to think that I thought attacking was so much easier!! ), but I still enjoyed myself, and everytime seeing my feeding reach Claire without being in reach of Shanice/Celine, I get a great sense of achievement. I mean, come on! This is th first time I play attack you know! And my feedings are not even in reach of defenders! :D - bigbig smile. - Teammates said that my feeding was quite good, including my one time lope (which later was deemed as void cause th pass I caught was over a third -o- ARGH.), which reached Claire right above her head!!

Sigh. Aft trg, had a lil debate over who's cuter - LeeMinHo or KimBum. Obviously LEEMINHO cuter right :P Heng uh, ChaoHong not here. -O-
Washed up and stuffs, went t 7-11 t makan w teammates and some juniors. And then later we bitched about alot of things under th nicenice sky :D I even said Hi t this lil girl who always appears when any of us are makaning at th garden, but she disappeared right aft I said Hi -_- K, fine, whatever :D

Then we sat under th shade at th corridoor there like no body's business and bitched and laughed like no body's assy business :D I like :D
Walked back t Lot1, bitching even more again! I likelike x2! :D
I was so niaoji -_- th moment I reached Lot1 I just ran t th toilet -_-

Homed afterwards. Have no motivation t study. Fuck.

Anyway, I randomly found this picture taken last year, but just forgot t post.

Yea baby, its th nerd season! :P

Suddenly I miss everything about you and me.
Leaving me here right in this corner of my troubles.
Sure, I made th choice, but ..
I dont like th way you treat me now.
Cold, attitude. I just dont get you.
No, please let me cry just for this once, and I promise you I will never cry again.

Lastly, I feel like bursting my sister's pink balloon >: ( XinAn and KianHwee should know what Im talking about >: ( Eh hello! She was throwing it at my head yesterday somemore you know! >: (

2009-06-14T22:12:00.002+08:00

'Love, has no ending.'

There's trg tomorrow. I wonder how am I Teammates and I gonna die.
5oRounds tomorrow. My guess is around field.
I dont know where I went wrong during th friendlys on Saturdays, my drive?
Obviously my passes are more or less going downhill.
~~Everything seems t be going downhill anyway.~~
My thumbs, palms and feet hurt so much, but I'll persevere, Im gonna prove MsGermaine Wrong.
Im gonna make it through, and prove it that Im worthy of B'div, that I can survive her ~~monstorous~~ trg. I just hope Sam brings my Knee Guard tomorrow, but whether or not she brings it Im not gonna collapse even if my knee hurts.

You should know.
I just dont like this awkward feeling.

2009-06-12T20:40:00.016+08:00

This time round, I will be strong, strong and firm as a stone.
No matter what life throws at me, I'll not be moved.
Although things are different this time round, I will still be here t prove that love still exists.

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Yay people, Im back. Im gonna be strong people. Dont worry, I will stay strong.
Sorry bout th no post period . @_@ Yea, big deal Charmaine :P

Anyway, these few days, had dinner w my dad at CWP, on Tuesday was SakaeSushi, ate till 9.30pm, damn full, cannot stand straight, but had sashimi :D Which gave me a stomachach cause I didnt eat my sashimi for 10mins cause I was babbling away, till my Dad stopped me and asked me t eat my sashimi before it is conquered by bacteria -_- ( You know bacteria thrive best on raw food yanoe! )

Wednesday, trg by seniors, coaches never come. Quite ok, until Shafa's ball resprained my thumb :( and then Keely slamming ball at us (as requested ok!), veh pain T.T Then lunch w teammates at 7-11, then home.

Thursday, went back t sch w Keely t help deco Netball board. Buy BBT, then bused down t meet Keely. She cute ass la, ask her meet me at bus stop she thought at th bus interchange, in th end she call me:
K; Char, I reach le, where you?
C; I at bus stop ley, you ley?
K; Same, I there too. But where you?
C; Huh? I cannot find you ley, where on earth are you ?!
K; Bus stop la. In front of 300.
C; HUH!? Simi 300? No bus in sight ley.
K; I at bus interchange.
C; KEELY! I MEANT TH BUS STOP OPPOSITE SCH MY DEAR.

LOL. So we finally met each other, went into sch blahblahblah.
Settled down t do th board, aft changing so many places, first because of ants, second because too hot, then finally settled down on th corridoor :}
Managed t finish quite a number of things, Keely was so serious manxzxz :} I was shooting sometimes :D Finally Char and ShiMin came, late :} Made them do rest of th work :} But they playing most of th time lo : ( So we quickquick finish work, clean up (Me and Keely do one. They all playplay D:) So pei-ed Keely shoot her 600 shots (wtf. Took 1.5h you know D:) Played Volleyball w Jessica for awhile, quite fun neh?
Afterwards lunch at 7-11 w them, home. Didnt manage t go gym, cause of Keely's shots lo :(

Friday, today was fun yanoe :D
Lazed in bed cause body so heavy, cannot get out, sms-ing. Got up at 10+am, use com blahblahblah, went t shower and prepare t go meet Mummy. Sister rush me like crap, make me lose 15mins of preparing time :(

I know la, I look veh weird :( I veh long never wear dress le ! Like, at least 2yrs ago ?! Or even more.

Ok. So, we MRT-ed down t Ochard, w people staring at me cause I was in my dress -_- Waited for Mummy for 45mins !! Stood there like dumb, feet aching like hell, was complaining t sister : (
Finally she came, walked t FarEast and shopped. Found many dresses that I want ! >: ( But then there's one, Kimono like, but then th top part was abit too big for me T.T There were tanktops that I wanted too, but didnt get cause apparently, Mummy kept asking me dont anyhow waste money >: (
So bought a bag, argh, whatever. I just LOVE Great Singapore Sale :D

Its th dress Im wearing in white that I want so much !!! And th pink bag is damn cute la :D

So, walked down t Royal Plaza on Scotts at 3pm, went t Galleria t rest abit, feet veh tired ley, took alot of peektures :}

Ok, last two pictures of me my mum insisted on taking -_-

So, at 3.25pm we went down t th hotel again, and ohmy, one longlong queue ! Kiasu people xD

And Mummy actually told me this 'Eh, must quickquick ley, be th first batch, so dunt need wait for seats.' -_-

Went in, settled down, and went t get food :D Got Japanese food first, Sashimi! Ohmy, so in love w it. :D (Ahshucks, th picture of my jap food is gone :( )
Eat until veh full, but I love th Chocolate fondue th best :D
Saw MrsNeo, at first she just walk past me, I thought is stranger, then she suddenly turn around and 'hit' me friendly on my shoulder, I was like, OHMYGOSH. and jumped -_-
Haha, she's so cute luh :D

Ok, took many peektures too ;D
Left at around 5.3opm, trained back, didnt shop anymore :(

Ok, I highly recommend Park Royal On Scotts if you want t have HighTea.
They have a wide variety of food, ranging from Indian, t Western (scones, cakes blahblahblah), Singaporean, t DimSum. There's even a chocolate fountain ok!
For those who loves jap food, they have sashimi, sushi, cold noodles, and even green tea soba !
Th food is a little above standard, but its still leaves you wanting more .
Th ambience is lovely, w nice cockery and stuffs. They dont play music in th background, so you can soak in th presence of your friends or your family without being distracted by the music.
Th service is great too, with waiters around you almost every second, with jugs of coffee/tea/water, waiting just t serve you. They even auto serve you when your cup is low!
They are polite, and warm, making me feel real bad cause I asked them t refill my cup twice, and change some of my cockery :X
At every 'station' (by th way th variety of food are classified, so one station is all chinese while th other is jap and so on and so for, for your own convinience.), there are chefs on standby to refill your food, so that you get fresh and hot/cold food, depending on how th food is supposed to be.
Th overall charges is 33$ , and for three people it costs 98.87$. Real costly, but why bother when its a great experience?
Oh, yes, did I mention that they have a selection of real cute and nice looking cakes for you ? And this selection includes cakes THICK with chocolate, so I guess this will really appeal to chocolate lovers.
(Gosh, its so fun advertising :D)

Oh, and lastly, I have some complains t make.

Cheena people.

Ok, firstly, my sister isnt th cheena one la . I was trying t take peekture of th lady behind her. But she thought I taking picture of her so she pose lo -_-
Ok, secondly, its th lady behind her that's cheena. LOL. So, what she did was, first, she brought back one plate full of food. Then she went back and got another plate full of food.
And they were mountains kkk. Greedy much?
If you think that isnt bad, read on.

There was one time I went t get Salmon Sashimi for me and Mummy, and there was no more. So th chef told me nicely that he will replenish th salmon. So being a non-kiasu Singaporean I went back t my seat and waited. Then I saw that cheena lady who walked past my table, w a mountain of salmon. Get this clear, A mountain of salmon. My first thought was, Ohmyfuckgoodness. Isnt that like, all of th salmon that was replenish ?!
Ok, so I started getting worried (:P cause I hate waiting.) So I went back t th buffet table, and saw that only 4 pieces were left (wow, how kind of her.) And soon they were taken away by th lady infront of me . Wow. Great.

I was mad ok. I told my mum veh loudly about it, and she went Aiyoh,eat so much. Later she stomach cannot take it uh!. And being th usual me, I went YA LO YA LO BEST IF SHE LIKE THAT UH. ROFLOL.

Ok, then later she kept bringing two plates at one time, both filled w food. And she just stuffed herself, giving th impression that she didnt eat for a week. Ok, even if th bill costed her 33$ , also dont need eat like end of world right ?!

@.@
Disgrace t Singapore.

Secondly,

Kiasu People

Oh, sadly, this happens in Singapore, t Singaporeans.
In th MRT today, I saw people literally RUNNING for empty seats. There was even one guy, walking in th MRT, as in CHIONG in, and then stop, look, no seats on th right, he turned t his left, saw there was a seat, and RAN t th seat. I swear, he RAN.

HALLO?! Furthermore it is a priority seat you know!! Gosh, where's th kindness man Singapore? Or more importantly, where's your face and dignity? Making yourself look so ~~unglam~~ pathetic just for a dumb seat?
What if there were old people in th surrounding making their slow way t th seat? You just run t th seat? Turn a blind eye t them?
Woah, even I give up my seat on th bus/MRT when I see a old man/lady. For th sake of a seat you can lower yourself t such a low state? Gosh, where's kind hearts manxzxz.
Singapore's going down because of them @.@

Yes, I know Xin An told me, get used t it, its Singapore, but hello? This is so destressing. Looking at them makes me want t laugh in their shitface, and tell them what a disgrace they are t Singapore. You know how many people were staring at those inconsiderate people ?

Dashing into th MRT without letting people alight is bad enough, now what? Dashing in for th seats? Running for seats? Being a greedy pok and not caring about th others?
Man. How is Singapore gonna move on with this kind of people?

Ok. Ranting done. Lastly, Congrats t XinAn's team, who got 4th in some Yoghurt Competition.

Trg tmr at SCGS, then Gym w Joice and maybe some other teammates. Keely's gonna be away at Bali(?) : ( Im so gonna miss her :(
Brother's coming back on Sunday, miss him so much.

Lastly,

A super big thanks t James.Brother, Darren.Bestie, Mama, JiongLin, William, LinQi.Sister, XinAn, Leon, and a whole lot of others who cared and cheered me up during these past days.
And lastly, t Darren, Mama, JiongLin, Sister and Brother.
Thankyou for never giving up on me, Thankyou for always being there for me.

I realised, when your at th abyss of your misery,
if your just willing t look,
you will find, that there's still hope in your life.
And that hope, are your friends.

Happy Birthday YingXiang!

2009-06-08T18:18:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday YingXiang!

Ahyes, today's YingXiang's birthday. There's alot of June babies I know - JunDa, Mindy, YanFang, Kimbly (!), YingXiang, Gervan, XinAn .. Ok I dont remember alrdy.
Yes, I know Im a June baby as well, but somehow Im not looking forward t it.
I hope I can celebrate it w teammates, and Seoul Garden w JamesBrother :( And then drag him t watch 'Drag me t hell' w me, and then his another side of him will come out :P But -'-, there's trg on my birthday : ( And my piano exam before my birthday, and XinAn's birthday is before my exam, and I have a carnival at Padang two days before his birthday.
Ohgosh, June is really very packed. Will I even be able t celebrate my birthday if I want t ?